Hug Me Kiss Me

Oh Me

2007-07-03T20:35:00.000-02:30

It's been far too long since I last posted. I've been caught up with Facebook. That site truly is addictive. Not bad for someone who said she'd never join it, right. But I'm on there everyday, seeing what's up and looking at everyone's profiles and pictures. It's gotten me back in touch with old friends and people I haven't spoken to in years so I suppose it's all good.

School is done and Rory and Nolan are off doing what little kids do. Camping and staying up later than usual and enjoying all the freedom summer allows to the innocent. I adore those kids. The last day was a little sad for me. They gave me kisses and hugs and said I love you on their way out the door. Off to their good times.

Things have been in a bit of a transition here these past several weeks. I'm no longer dating C. B and I have decided to work things out. I'm happier these days than I've been in so long. I guess people and relationships have to go through rough patches sometimes. We've talked and figured things out and are happily giving it another try. *smiles*

I've turned 27. I'm not quite sure what to say about it. I feel no different than I did when I was 24 or 25 or 26. I find it funny that some people see turning a year older as such a big deal. I think age is one of those things that can bring you down if you let it. I feel wonderful. And turning 27 has been great. I think good things are going to happen this year.

Chris and Lynette have moved the wedding from October to August! So, it's 2 months earlier than we expected. I'm quite excited about it. Lynette asked me to be a bridesmaid and I have to give a speech, probably welcoming Lynette to the family. I know I'm going to cry! I'm already getting nervous about it! We've been busy here, getting ready for it all. We already had the shower and I soon have to get fitted for my dress. I very much enjoy doing the things leading up to the wedding. I can only imagine what it'll be like the week of!!

*Oh, I hear the rains/I see the fire/I feel the flame/It doesn't change/ All the faces I want to blame/For the spaces in between the shame/ I'm feeling.../ The Kingdom's calling/ The Kingdom's calling you*

Mandy
xo

Beautiful as You

2007-05-16T00:43:00.000-02:30

I feel backward
and clumsy
Yet you never comment
In your eyes
I am beautiful
I am perfect
I am you

You breathe me in
and memorize my every curve
Trace my cheek with your finger
my lips with your tongue
my heart with your love

Went to WWE RAW on Saturday night past (May 12). Robert and Chris and Jordan went as well. I had the most fun. I'll never find the words to describe it. It was a surreal experience. We managed to take some amazing pictures. Our seats were so close to the ring! John Cena was literally, about 25 feet from me! I can admit that I lost all inhibitions. I was jumping, and clapping my hands and screaming with the rest of them :) best.time.ever.

Summer feels like it's coming so quickly. My time with Rory is slipping through my fingers. I'm truly going to miss him when they no longer need me. June is all I have left. What will I do after that....

I've become addicted to Facebook *hangs head in shame* I swore I wouldn't join, and now, here I am, everyday checking it and doing surveys. Oh my! But I've gotten back in touch with a friend I knew when we were playing house and school when we were 10 years old! I hadn't spoken to her in 10 years or more and now she's on my friend list. I guess I can't complain about that, right?

I'm off to Town for the long weekend. C's birthday is on May 29 so we're going to have some birthday celebrations a week or so early. Fun times.

*Is love by chance or seduction/all that I have are vague assumptions/of what love must be like/what love must feel like/Tell me what does it look like/is it as beautiful as you*

Mandy
xo

Colors Seem to Fade

2007-05-01T20:43:00.000-02:30

The stars are watching
I hide my face
My bright smile
My twinkling eyes
Lies
Infuriating sadness
Inconvenient truth
Swallowed down
Buried deep
But I'll dance
Under the moon
and the watchful stars
Who
As always
See the truth

It's been a while since I last posted. I can't seem to get my thoughts in order lately. Something else always comes up or I get lazy. Same old same old. I've been spending a lot of my weekends in Town these days. I've been dating someone...Chris...and we've been hanging out and getting to know each other. He's a great person and we've been having fun.

And I've been shopping lots. I bought a new digital camera that I'm super impressed with. We have tickets to see WWE Raw (wrestling!) next weekend and I plan to get some pictures of my hunky men :P I'm quite excited to go! I'm expecting to have an amazing time.

I think that's it from me again. I had a bunch to say but it all seems to have left me. Take care of yourselves.

*I never meant to make you cry/and though I know I shouldn't call/It just reminds us of the cost/For everything we've lost/Bad timing that's all/And maybe soon there'll come a day/When no more tears will fall/We each forgive a little bit/And we both look back on it/It's just bad timing that's all*

Mandy
xo

I'm off like an airplane

2007-04-01T21:08:00.000-02:30

I told you
and the words didn't come as easily
as I thought they would.
All I wanted was
to spare you the hurt
you didn't spare me.

And you took them in,
Quiet and dignified
and broke me
as only you ever could.

C is a great guy, you tell me.
And we'll always be friends.
And nobody knows how much
I want those words to be truth.

Just when I think I have no more
tears for you
they start to fall.
But today I am stronger.
And I know you are too.

And I think that's all I want
to say about that.

*when i cry, i close my eyes/and every tear falls down inside/and i pray with all my might/that i will find my heart in someone's arms/when i cry*

Mandy
xo

I met the Animal

2007-03-25T21:51:00.000-02:30

I'm so lazy tonight, and on top of that I'm feeling quite happy. C came out on Friday and we went to Tim Horton's and then ended up at Rupert's house, which was interesting, to say the least. Then on Saturday I went to C's house for supper and the Gushue's were there as well. That went much smoother. I liked his mom and his brothers, especially K, haha, what a cutie! After the supper, Rupert, C and I went to Tim's and after we dropped Rupert at home we went back to Tim's (our favorite place to be apparently!). Then we came back here. It was quite a lovely evening. Now the weekend is done and I'm here by myself in my jammies being lazy!

I see in you a sweetness.
Something so genuine
it breaks my heart.
And when you speak
I hang on your every word
and know in my heart that I can believe them.

When I close my eyes I can see your face
and my heart jumps a little
at the thought that you may be
thinking of me too.

Words we whisper
so small
Fill me up and sustain me.
The darkness envelopes us
and we lie close
and sleep.

*I pray that it's raining on sunday/stormin like crazy/we'll hide under the covers all afternoon/baby whatever comes monday/can take care of itself/cuz we've got better things that we can do/when it's raining on sunday*

Mandy
xo

Clinique'ly Happy

2007-03-21T16:33:00.000-02:30

I can't stop smiling
I can't stop thinking of you
You with your shy smile
and nervous laugh
and your beautiful eyes.

Brown so intense I feel I could step into them
and nestle safely in their warmth
and be content forever.

Your gentleness amazes me
and I close my eyes
and feel your breath in my hair
and your heart beating against my cheek.
Steady rhythm, in time with my own.

The world has faded away.
No one exists in this cocoon but me
and you
and I smile
and snuggle closer
ever closer
and breathe you in.

*you are the sweetest thing i've found since whenever/you're the only way my time is measured/you might be the silent type/but you're advertising louder now/it's crazy how you're killing me/...woo, cause i like to look at you yeah/and i love that smell on you...*

Mandy
xo

The Weakness in Me

2007-03-10T00:12:00.000-03:30

I'm sitting here, thinking, wishing, wondering.
People can be hard to read.
Their faces reveal nothing.
But then their words, ever so subtle,
tell you just what you want to know.
And you feel a warm rush
through your belly
and it creeps into your cheeks.
And you smile your widest
and laugh, laugh harder than you have in weeks.

Then the laughter fades
and you look at each other
strangers almost, but not quite
and you fall silent for just a moment
but it's ok
because you know that at any minute
laughter will hit you again.
Harder than before.

And it's all so new, so thrilling.
And surprising, if you're honest with yourself.
Love still lingering in your heart.
Wanting to push through,
But you can't let it,
You can't let it bring you down.
You can just remember
and hold it close
and kiss it goodnight.

And sit here
With hair that smells like coffee.
And cheeks still warm from that smile.
And you kiss it goodnight.

*if I choose now/I'll lose out/one of you has to fall/and I need you....and you/...are you so strong/or is all the weakness in me*

Mandy
xo

Drunken boys = Fun times

2007-02-20T14:05:00.000-03:30

This past weekend was so much fun I hardly know where to begin...or what I should leave out! :P I headed in Town on Friday morning and Pamela and I went to both the Village and Avalon malls. Shopped for some sexy party clothes and accessories, had lunch, I got my hair done, it was quite fun. Then we went back to her apartment and got ourselves all prettied up to go to Chris and Jason's for the party they were having.

We got there around 10 and were the first to arrive but within an hour there were about 15 people there! And I was surprised that I actually knew a whole lot of them. Kevin was there along with his gf Amy. He is great fun! In the couple of times I've been around him I never really spent much time talking to him or just being around him but I did this time! Haha!

It's amazing what drinking will make people do, especially when there's a well endowed person amongst them! *cough* I spent the night having the girls grabbed by whomever walked by me...and there are several pictures to prove that! And I got several kisses as well as someones email address. Chris and Jason's friends are quite nice.

Poor Jason was so so so drunk. I saw more of that boys body then I ever thought I would!! Oh my! He and Chad were really the only ones who got that drunk. Everyone else was definitely feeling it but we could all still stand up on our own. My little Pamela wasn't feeling well so she went home around 12ish and I stayed the night. The last of the people finally left around 4:00. Greatest party ever!

On Saturday night Pamela had plans with some friends so Chris, Jason and I along with Rupert and a couple of others went to see Ghost Rider. I wasn't as interested in seeing that movie as all the guys were but it ended up not being a bad movie at all. I liked it fine. Maybe it was the company that made it good :D After the movie the boys waited with me while I got a cab and went back to Pamela's. And, knowing Pamela and I, we ordered chinese at like 2 in the morning!! Haha! Coming home on Sunday morning killed me. I already can't wait until next time I go in!

*would it be my fault if i could turn you on/would i be so bad if i could turn you on/when i kiss your mouth i want to taste it...*

Amanda
xo

Oh...

2007-02-13T20:50:00.000-03:30

The past several weeks have been very upsetting for me. Things in my life have been changing and I wasn't exactly prepared for them. B and I broke up, and though things were probably over a month ago, it was official only as of two weeks ago. I haven't told anyone really, mostly because I get upset when I talk about it so I figured I'd write it here so I don't have to say the words 'broke up' over and over.

I'm slowly becoming accustomed to the idea of being single again, but let me tell you, it sucks. Valentine's Day is tomorrow and I know it's going to crush me...but I'll make it through. I'm happy for all of you who have someone to love and spend the day with but secretly, I'm going to be hating you all just a little for tomorrow only. (haha)

Thank god for Pamela. She has been spending a lot of time with me online and in person over the past few weeks and I don't know what I'd have done without her. She is definitely the best distraction for sadness that I can think of. She's a really good friend. *I love you lot's sweets*

And, I've been going out on weekends...meeting new people and hanging out with new friends. I got a new haircut today as well! It was in the middle of my back and now it's just on my shoulders with messy layers. I like it a lot! I feel like a new person. A change is just what I needed right now. Maybe the new me won't be as sad as the old me.....

*tell me, are you really happy?/or did you simply throw our life away/just to be unhappy?/...and i tried to make you happy/but i believe you thrive on misery*

Mandy
xo

Water from the moon

2007-01-30T19:14:00.000-03:30

My mind is racing. A thousand thoughts running around. Bumping into each other at 100 km/h. There's no resolution in sight and my nerves are a jumbled mess. There's so much I want to say...need to say. How do I find the right words. How do I make you see what I see. I can feel it falling apart. I can taste it on my every tear. My fear is bitter in my throat. It's reducing me to what I never wanted to become. I am frightened. I am alone. I am angry. I am holding it in and I'm ready to burst.
My sadness brims at the surface, every moment of every day. But I hold it in. I smile. I laugh. I pretend my heart isn't about to break wide open. It will drown them. It will drown me. I don't want to let go. Hold on.

Mandy
xo

A Brand New Year

2007-01-09T23:24:00.000-03:30

Christmas was lovely, as it always is. Terrence was home from Edmonton and it was really nice to see him and to get to spend some time with him. Chris and Lynette were out a few times and we had a full house for Christmas supper. Pop (Gus) was here as well. B and I spent as much time together as we could considering his work schedule, and I had Christmas dinner at his house and we exchanged presents. I enjoyed Christmas very much this year. And, as is always the case, the holidays were over much too quickly.

New Year's Eve was an interesting one. B and I went to a house party which happened to be next door to the Shortall's. It was hosted by Chris (Jesus, LOL), a guy B went to high school with and pretty much everyone that was there were B's high school people. Pamela was there as well, which was good for me cuz I knew nobody! I happened to be wearing a very low cut shirt and I had a jean jacket on over it but once we got drinking I got very warm (of course!) and Pam kept telling me to take off my jacket, lol, and I didn't really want to because of the shirt but I finally had to give in. There was a guy there, Jason, and he'd been looking at me and chatting with me a nice bit and once the jacket came off I thought his eyes would bug out!! LOL! Pam was sitting beside me and every few minutes she would say "he's looking again" LOL Oh my! Good times. They had a few fireworks at 12. B spent the night here with me. It was a great night indeed.

Now I'm back to work again and this cough I've had for about 4 weeks is still lingering. I think B and I are going to Carbonear on Saturday to see the movie Deja Vu. It looks like a pretty good movie. Maybe we'll get Andrew and Jenna to play cards or something. That always proves to be a good laugh.

Take care everybody. Bye bye for now.

*well it's not the time to breakdown/it's not the time to breakdown/it's not the time to break up this love/keep it together now/it's not the time to break*

Mandy
xo

It's Merry Christmas Time!

2006-12-12T23:39:00.000-03:30

Hello All, how are things? I can't believe how quickly Christmas is coming. It seems like the days keep going faster and faster. Thank goodness I have all my shopping done! I'm quite on top of things this year. I'm really looking forward to Christmas. Chris and Lynette are coming out for the day, and I was talking to Terrence and he'll be home on Sunday to be here in time for Christmas! I can't wait to see him.

B and I have a busy weekend coming up that I am quite looking forward to. On Saturday we are going to St. John's for shopping. He has to finish up, and then we're going to Sheldon and Jenn's for her party!!!!! I'm so excited! I haven't seen Sheldon in so long that I think it's actually been more than a year. I miss him incredibly. And I think we have things worked out so that we'll be able to go. So unless something comes up there will be an amazing drunk for B and I this very weekend! Good good times! B has never met Sheldon but from the things I've been telling him, he's really looking forward to it!

On Sunday we're going to Bay Robert's for the Special Olympics Christmas supper and dance. That is going to be a treat. I adore doing things with the Special Olympians. They are so sweet and funny and they are great people to be around. That is going to be a very fun night. Then on Monday night Clarke's Beach is having a tree lighting ceremony and giving loot bags to the kids. So I think I'll go to that as well.

I keep seeing in Lesley's blog and msn names songs she's listening to and they're all the songs I've been listening to!! I can't believe anyone else knows the song "Orange Sky" by Alexi Murdoch. It's my favorite from the Prison Break soundtrack. I can't stop listening to it.

Well, I suppose I'll go on again. I'm not sure if I'll be updating again before Christmas so I'll send my holiday wishes to everyone now. I hope you all have a great Christmas and a wonderful new year. Spend it with the people you love and be happy! Take care.

*i don't see myself when i look in the mirror/i see who i should be/i don't see myself when i look in your eyes/thank god for that/i don't see myself when i look cross the river/i see where i should be/i don't see myself when i look from the sky/thank god for that...*

Mandy
xo

All is well

2006-11-15T16:22:00.000-03:30

I guess it's time for another update. Everytime I sit at the computer I think to myself that I should update and then I always put it off. So I guess now is as good a time as any.

Things have been going wonderfully. I've been keeping busy. B and I went to Jungle Jim's for supper last weekend with Pam and Rupert and another of their friends. It was a lovely time. A good laugh! Then I spent the whole long weekend at B's house and didn't come home until Monday. It was relaxing and quiet and I loved it!

Mom and I went shopping in Carbonear on Monday while B was at work and we really got a lot done. I'm now half done my Christmas shopping! That makes me very happy. And on the 26th we're going to St. John's for a day of Christmas shopping. I'm hoping to pretty much finish it all on that day.

We've started getting some of the decorations put up outside before the weather gets too cold and mom's started playing our Bing Crosby (my favorite!) Christmas cd's and now I'm longing for Christmas to be here. I'm like a child! I get so excited for the holidays. Even Rory asks for the carols when he gets home from school, and we've started making up our own words to them for silly carols. It's hard to believe that there's only six weeks left. They'll pass quickly too. :D

B has been doing exceptionally well at work :D He's getting commission again this week for the second week in a row. I'm really proud of him and happy for him that he's doing something he's good at. And it's so cute how excited he is when he tells me after work how many sales he made that night. I could squoosh him. *kisses*

Yesterday was mom's birthday and we all gave her presents and she went out to supper and I hope she had a good day. *Happy birthday Mama*

Take care of yourselves.

*it's really good to hear your voice saying my name/it sounds so sweet/coming from the lips of an angel/hearing those words it makes me weak*

Mandy
xo

So, yeah

2006-10-16T20:22:00.000-02:30

Heya Folks

It's been a good long time since I've updated I know, but I get so lazy about it sometimes. There's been lots happening and whatnot but I doubt I'll remember it all now to tell it here!

I got a new computer two weeks ago at Future Shop. Chris and one of his coworkers helped me pick it out and I got it for a good price so I'm super excited about it. I bought a 19 inch flat screen LCD monitor to go with it and I do believe I am in love! It is by far my most favorite thing I have purchased in a long long time. It has so much more hard drive than my old computer, and a faster processor. Doing things on this computer and comparing how long it used to take on my old computer absolutely amazes me! I mean, to transfer files to my thumb drive used to take 10 minutes depending on the size and now for the same thing it takes about 40 seconds!! Honestly! So this computer kicks ass indeed!

And if I didn't mention it in a previous post, Chris and Lynette moved to Town, well, Torbay, back in June. He quit at Pipeline and is now working at Future Shop. He's doing quite well in there. He and Lynette just bought a brand new truck last week! It's a lovely shade of blue. Chris adores it!

B got a new job last week that he's really excited about. He's on nights right now, 5:30 to 12:15. It's taking a little getting used to not having him home in the evenings to talk to but it hasn't been so bad. He's doing really really well there too, so I'm super proud of him. My sexy working man! ;D

That's about all I can think of for now. I hope everyone is well and having fun. Talk to you all later!

*you know there's no need to hide away/you know i tell the truth/we are just the same/i can feel everything you do/hear everything you say/even when you're miles away/coz i am me, the universe and you*

Mandy
xo

An Update

2006-09-08T08:33:00.000-02:30

It's been a while but all during August I kept busy and there was so much going on that I just didn't feel like giving up a single minute of my holiday to write! Paul was admitted to hospital on the 16th for his assessment and he's been there since, so we've had to be running back and forth to Town a couple of times a week for different things. And, B has moved back home to Spaniards Bay from Town, and for the last half of August we pretty much lived at his house! So I was never here long enough to do anything :)

Now I'm back to work, started on Tuesday, and things are a little different this year but it hasn't taken long to get back into it. The boys come to my house now and get the bus from here, and Rory is in Kindergarten so I only have him for half the day. It's very strange not to be with him all day long. He's so excited about school and he looks so tiny getting up on the huge bus. He loves it.

I can't get enough of listening to Muse these days either. B introduced me to them and I adore so many of their songs. I'd never heard of them before I met B. You'd be amazed at how much great music is out there that you have to search for because it isn't on the music stations because every second word isn't 'ho' or 'bitch'. My taste in music has definitely been changed a bit since B and I started dating. I still listen to all my old favorites but he's gotten me into some bands that I never would have given a chance in the past. And I like to think I've influenced his taste with some of my music as well. *I've heard you singing along with Tea Party, sweets* Haha!

I feel so lazy all of a sudden! It's only 8:43 in the morning and I feel like I've been up forever. Really I've only been up since 7! But the boys are off at school and I'm free until Rory gets home at lunchtime. I think it's going to take a bit of getting used to, all this free time I'll have during the day. I think I'll go read some more of my book.

I hope everyone had a great summer. Take care.

*destroy this city of delusion/break these walls down/i will fight/justify my reasons/with your blame*

Mandy
xo

Memories

2006-07-31T12:17:00.000-02:30

We've been on a cleaning binge here lately and it's amazing how much we have the basement tidied up. I've been going through boxes and boxes of my things and seeing things that I haven't looked at in years. I've been doing more than my share of crying over things that bring back memories of when I was a kid or of high school. Yesterday I found old notes that we used to pass back and forth in class! Some from as far back as grade eight and nine! Reading through them and seeing all the "drama" that I had back then was hilarious. It almost makes me yearn for that time to be back, even if it's just for a day. I miss just being with those people (Debbie, Jennifer N, Richard, Michael, Steph) in that setting. We had great times at Ascension. Great times.

I also found my handprint from Kindergarten and the invitation that was sent to my parents inviting them to my Kindergarten graduation. Old report cards, old birthday cards...you name it, I found it. My keep pile was much larger than my throw away pile! I had to keep all those things. One of these days I'm going to make a scrapbook I think.

B went back to Town yesterday. It was strange waking up without him this morning. We spent every day of the last two weeks together and I'm so used to him being here that now I have to get used to doing things by myself again. I miss him.

I guess I should go on again. Take care of yourselves.

*she tried to hide the scars/her name reminds me of the stars/i saw diamonds divide/corners of her eyes...*

Mandy
xo

Back From Town

2006-07-21T21:41:00.000-02:30

Here I am, back from St. John's. I went in on Sunday and got back yesterday (Thursday). I had a great time. On Sunday we went out with B's mom and uncle to celebrate her birthday which is actually today. We saw Pirates of the Caribbean 2 (great movie) and went to supper at Klondike Jake's (great food). Then we got dropped off at the apartment and just hung out there for the rest of the evening.

On Monday we went to the Avalon Mall and shopped around and ate at the food court and had Second Cup. I ran into Steph R who I haven't seen in at least two years! We chatted for a few while she was waiting for a friend. On Wednesday B and I went to the Big R for supper, and that night we ordered a movie and had a few drinks. I love being in Town. I love living in C.B. but sometimes I miss living in there.

Last weekend me, mom, Jordan, Chris and Lynette and Andrew's girlfriend, J gathered up all our old things we didn't want anymore and went out and had a huge yard sale! We sold a bunch of stuff that was cluttering up the house and all made a couple of hundred dollars each! We still have a bunch of stuff left so we're thinking about going out to try again this weekend if all the rain that's been forecast stays away.

I hope everyone is having a lovely summer. Take care.

*i can't remember all the things you said/i can't remember all the times that you turn that perfect smile/upside down and then spun it all around.../i wish my limbs were broken/i'd have hands to heal/i can't wake up and i can't sleep/so just crash/just crash*

Mandy
xo

Northern Bay Sands

2006-07-11T22:48:00.000-02:30

On Saturday past I went to Northern Bay Sands with B, Chris, Lynette, Andrew and J. What a fun day we had! I'd never been to NBS before (which was a shock to everyone because apparently everyone and his uncle has been there at least once!) Anyway, we got there just before 1:00 and we set up our blankets and stuff and the guys played frisbee and I, of course, applied my sunscreen! SPF 70! Honestly. I put it on three times throughout the day and only came home with a slight sunburn. I'm quite impressed. I have a little bit of pretty color and no blisters or swelling (which is what I usually get when I venture out into the sun).

NBS is so lovely. The sand is so soft and you can only walk on it for a minute before it starts to burn your feet. Then you go into the ocean and your legs go numb because it's freezing! We walked down the beach and I saw a shell sticking up in the sand and I tried to nudge it out with my toe but it was stuck. So B got it out and it was a gigantic snail shell with a gigantic snail still inside. We took some pictures of it.

We got something to eat at the little restaurant that's there and then we went through a trail and came to a little pond with much warmer water and that's where we stayed for the rest of the afternoon. It was nice day :)

On Sunday I'm off to Town for a week! B's brother and uncle will be in Spaniards Bay so we'll have the apartment to ourselves. We're going to go shopping and see a movie and just do fun things. I love Town. I'm really looking forward to going in.

That's it for now. Take care everyone.

*with the lights out it's less dangerous/here we are now/entertain us/i feel stupid and contagious/here we are now/entertain us*

Mandy
xo

Birthday Girl

2006-06-29T23:39:00.000-02:30

Well my birthday is almost done and I've got to say, it was quite lovely. I really had a very nice day. B already gave me presents last weekend when he was out and his mom gave me a gift certificate for Restaurant 99. I plan on making good use of it on Sunday when B and I as well as Chris, Lynette, Andrew, and J go out for my birthday supper!

We had a birthday BBQ today and everyone was here except B. He'll be coming out tomorrow. Mom got me a lovely chocolate cake and we took some pictures and had a laugh. It was a nice time. Turning 26 has been one of the best days I can remember. Actually, I have been feeling so good these past months. I really am happy with where my life has taken me :D

Now I'm having a drink (vodka and seven up) and am chatting with my beau. Take care all.

*happy birthday to me/happy birthday to me/happy birthday to Mandy/happy birthday to me*!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mandy
xo

Life and such

2006-06-28T00:00:00.000-02:30

It seems since I finished work on Friday I haven't stopped having things to do! I'm not complaining though, I love being busy when I'm off work. It's better than sitting around the house!

There was some sadness though. On Wednesday, the 21st, my pop Russell in Bay Robert's (nan's second husband) passed away. He was 92 years old. I remember when Chris and I were little and we'd go visit him and my nan and before we'd leave to go home he'd reach into the fridge and give us an apple and an orange each, every single time. And he'd give us pennies he had rolled, haha. And he always called me Bonanza, never Amanda. And as we were going out the door I always had to go back and give him a big hug and kiss, he'd be saying where's my kiss. When I was in Kindergarten he'd drive me to school every day and come pick me up when it was over. He looked so different at the funeral home and his hands were so cold but his skin was so soft. I miss him.

On Saturday we were supposed to do the Relay for Life (cancer walk) but the rain was pouring from the sky. It was crazy. I bought a new umbrella and we got there and I opened it and literally two minutes later the wind blew and flipped it inside out and broke it! Honestly! We went long enough to give them our money that we'd collected and then we left again and we were drenched.

I went to Laurie's baby shower last night and she had Olivia there. What a cutie. She's six months old but she's only nine pounds eleven ounces. I couldn't believe how small she was. She had a shaky start being born three months early but she's doing well now. Laurie passed her around for everyone to hold and I didn't want to give her back! I have baby fever! Haha!

Tonight I went to Carbonear to see the movie The Lake House with Andrew and J. It was a good movie but a bit confusing. I think I have it figured out but when it comes to DVD I think I'll rent it and watch it again. Now that I know what happens I think it'll be easier to follow.

Tomorrow I'm off to Western Bay with Doodle (Paul) because he has a visit with his nan. Then the next day is my birthday! Yay! It's so hard to believe that it's here already. 26, yikes, 30 is calling. Oh my! On Saturday I think we're going to Ryan and Terri's for a BBQ and then on Sunday a bunch of us are going out for supper to celebrate my birthday. So much to do, and I love it! B gave me my birthday presents when he was out last weekend and among them were beautiful wine glasses and a bottle of champagne. I think when he gets out this weekend we'll have a toast to me! :)

Oh my, I think that's it from me for now. I've been long winded tonight! Take care everyone. I hope your summer started off lovely.

*i'm the unseen/i'm disbelief, i'm undone/you are a dream/you are desire, you're the one/....and please, watch over me/because i can't carry on, without you*

Mandy
xo

Anniversary

2006-06-18T22:01:00.000-02:30

Yesterday (June 17) B and I celebrated our one year anniversary. It's hard to believe that a full year has passed since we started dating. We had such a lovely day. We went shopping and then went to the fair with Andrew and his girlfriend J. What a laugh. We went on the Hurricane very first thing, and I love that ride and hate it all at once! All the while we were in the lineup waiting to get on my stomach hurt so bad with nerves! After that I managed to get B on two more rides and then that was it for him! Poor thing. He gets so sick at the fair, I'm suprprised I got him on any at all. So for the rest of the night I got on rides with Andrew and J. Four times on the Tilt-a-Whirl (my favorite!) What a great time. B spent his time playing games and he played a ring toss one where you got to choose the poster you wanted so we chose posters that Rory and Nolan will like, and he played one where he had to break three balloons with three darts and he won J and I a giraffe each. After that we all went to Jungle Jim's, and then home where B and I had some wine to toast our anniversary. It was a beautiful day and I really enjoyed it.

Today we all gave dad some presents for Father's day and mom and I went to visit pop (Gus) to bring his presents. We had a BBQ for supper and then B went back to Town again. Lovely lovely weekend. I hope it was the same for everyone. Take care.

*see me (within the light)/flowing (take me to you)/like the river to the sea/you come down (i'm in the light)/you cover (pull me to you)/and the waves rush over me/i feel a love light rush over me/i feel the love turn to me/and then your love just creeps over me/over me*

Mandy
xo

Well, well

2006-06-13T19:48:00.000-02:30

The school year is almost over. I have a week and a half left of work, and then I'll be off for a couple of months. The Shortall's have asked me back for September and I told them I would be back. They were really happy I said yes. They said they didn't want to lose me :) Rory will be in Kindergarten so I'll only have him for half the day and nothing is definite yet, but he might be coming here instead of me going to their house which I think will be a nice change. Rory adores mom and she loves him and he's such a social butterfly. He'll have a blast being here with all the guys!

Mom is trying to get a summer recreational softball league started up for the kids around here. She hasn't had a lot of calls about it but she's had enough to make a few teams, so I hope it works out. I'm looking forward to volunteering as a couch for the summer. We'll see what happens. Things have changed since I was a kid. Every summer we had loads of kids signed up to play. I still have my trophies and plaques. Kids don't want to do anything anymore.

On Saturday, B and I will be celebrating our anniversary. One whole year! :D Time certainly flies. I think we're going to go to the fair and then to Jungle Jim's. I'm really looking forward to it. I love spending time with him. We have such a great time together. He's a sweetie that's for sure. I love him a lot. :X

And just a few weeks until my birthday! 26 is creeping up on me! I don't feel my age at all, and apparently I don't look it either! We were at Jungle Jim's about a month ago (yes, we love Jungle Jim's, haha) and I ordered a drink and the girl serving us asked for my ID! B must be keeping me young! I have no idea of any plans for my birthday yet. I'm sure we'll think of something between now and then.

Ok then, I think that's it for now. Take care of yourselves.

*he's the reason that i'm laughing/even if there's no one else/he said you've got to love yourself*

Mandy
xo

Slacker

2006-06-02T19:02:00.000-02:30

I have been horrible at keeping up on this lately. It's not that I have nothing to say, I just can never seem to get in the mood to update. Since my last post there's been a bunch of stuff happening. B didn't come out for two weekends which was boring, but then he came out for a full week to make up for it. We had a birthday BBQ for andrew on May 22...he's 19 now! unbelievable! We spent time hanging out at Chris and Lynette's playing Cranium and Rumoli with C, L, Andrew, his gf J, and Ryan and Terri. We also all went bowling last Friday night and I got a turkey! Three strikes in a row. I finished with 198 as my score. I was super proud! And I went to Town last Monday and did some shopping. It's been good times.

Now it's Friday and B will be coming out tomorrow and staying for a week again, which I'm quite happy about. We'll probably be going to Chris's again. It's always such a laugh and a good time when we go over there.

Everything is coming so fast these days. On the 17th B and I will be celebrating our one year anniversary :), my birthday is the 29th and on the 23rd I will be done at the Shortall's. No mention has been made about me going back again so I'm thinking this might be my last couple of weeks with them. I'm sad about that because I will miss the boys but I'm also excited because B and I have made many plans and I have a couple of other options in mind for the upcoming months :) Things are really lovely and I'm so happy these days.

Laurie's baby finally came home from the hospital today after almost a six month stay. Poor little sweetie. She was born three months premature and they kept her in to get her healthy and strong. I know Laurie must be so happy today and I'm happy for her.

I've been listening to all sorts of good music these days. Jewel has a new cd and Jeff Martin (lead singer from the Tea Party) has a solo cd which I really love. I also like the song "Crazy" by Gnarls Barkley. It's quite catchy.

That's it from me for another bit. I hope everyone is happy and well. Take care of yourselves.

Mandy
xo

*it's morning time, i miss your hands on my skin/this bed's too big without you/oh god, what do i do/i'm a thousand miles away, and i'm lying next to you* - 1000 Miles - Jewel

Fast Weekend

2006-04-30T23:26:00.000-02:30

My god the weekends scoot by quickly. There's never enough time to do everything I want it seems, and since I only see B on the weekend it feels like it's over even before it begins. It was a nice weekend though. Friday night was Ascension's grad so I babysat Rory and Nolan for a couple of hours. That was a treat! They love when I come over to put them to bed, Rory especially. He gets so excited bless his boots :)

Saturday we went to Carbonear and I bought a new wallet to match the purse J brought me back from Florida. Saturday night A and J were here and the four of us, me, A, J and B, played cards and had a few drinks. What a laugh! Aunt M was here as well. She'd bought a dog in Town and stayed here overnight so she wouldn't have to make the 6 hour drive home so late in the evening. Oh, her dog is a sweetie. She's an Australian Sheep dog. Very beautiful and playful (only 4 months old) licking all over my face to give kisses! Makes me want my own dog even worse than I already did!

May 24 weekend is almost here. I'm hoping the weather warms up a little bit. I think I might like to go camping for one night at least but if it's too cold I shall be staying home to sleep in my comfy warm bed! I do love to be warm!

Jordan's birthday was on Friday (April 28). I'm still getting used to the fact that he's 14 now! Before I know it he'll be going to Ascension! Everyone is growing up. Where is the time going I wonder? Makes me feel old. Birthday 26 is coming up for me soon! Holy smokes.

I must scoot. I'm out of things to say for now! Take care.

*golden slumbers fill your eyes/smiles awake you when you rise/sleep pretty darling do not cry/and i will sing a lullabye* - Golden Slumbers - The Beatles

Mandy
xo

Lovely Holiday

2006-04-23T20:37:00.001-02:30

It doesn't take long for 10 days to scoot by that's for sure. I'm back to work again tomorrow after having a very nice Easter holiday. I spent every day of it with B :D and we had great times indeed.

I went to St. John's last Sunday and stayed until Wednesday, and B came out with me that day and went back today (Sunday). I was quite sick though on Sunday night when I got there. I was up all night vomiting and then spent all day Monday recovering on the couch! It was just as well, the weather was gross anyway. Tuesday was a gorgeous day so we went to the mall and had lunch and did some shopping and went to Second Cup and had coffee and cake and a lovely chat. We went to Ponderosa with P for supper. My first time ever there.

I'm so anxious for J to get back from Florida! She's due back Monday night so I expect she'll be over on Tuesday. I'm dying to see what she'll bring! She'll be nice and brown and I'll be jealous of her tan!

Summer (and the end of the school year) is creepng up on me. I wonder what the Shortall's are planning for September. Nobody has mentioned anything to me yet so I'm not sure what my plans will be. I'm not even sure I want to go back. I do and I don't. I adore the boys but I'd sort of like a change. We'll see what happens when the time comes I guess.

Not much more to report so I'll go on again. Take care of yourselves.

*she sees him laying in the bed alone tonight/the only thing touching him's a crack of light/pieces of her hair are wrapped around and 'round his fingers/and he reaches for her side, for any sign of her that lingers*

Mandy
xo

Just call me Bebe

2006-04-10T16:43:00.000-02:30

Chris went to St. John's this morning to do his PARE. He was so nervous until he got there. Anticipation is killer! He had an amazing time, done so well. All the people were given 4 minutes 45 seconds to complete it and Chris finished in 3 minutes 18 seconds! Second best time of the morning! I'm so excited and nervous for him. I feel exactly the same as I did a few years ago when D was going through all of this. It seems everything is happening so fast. Before we know it we'll be waving goodbye to the plane that's taking him to Regina.

I had a great weekend. B was out (as usual!) and on Saturday we went to Carbonear for some shopping and then to Jungle Jim's for a late supper. It was lovely. On Sunday we went out to supper with his mom, K and P, to the new chinese place that's opened on Spaniards Bay beach. They have a buffet. The food is ok, though not as good as Rest. 99.

Andrew's girlfriend J is gone to Florida for a three week holiday! I'm so jealous :P She's gone with her aunts and female cousins. An all girl holiday. They've already been to a flea market where you can barter and get expensive name brand things for extremely cheap. She took some money for me and already has me a purse and a ring! She's going to get me some more stuff when they go back to the flea market later this week. I can't wait for her to get back! Presents for me! :D And presents for B!

I think that's it from me for now. Take care everyone.

*well my heart knows me better than i know myself/so i'm gonna let it do all the talking/(woo-hoo, woo-hoo)/i came across a place in the middle of nowhere/with a big black horse and a cherry tree/(woo-hoo, woo-hoo)* - Black Horse and the Cherry Tree - KT Tunstall

Mandy
xo

Happy Birthday to B!

2006-04-02T22:33:00.000-02:30

This past Tuesday (March 28) was B's birthday, so we celebrated it this weekend. Mr. Birthday Boy has been celebrating it for a week though! Last Sunday we went to Jungle Jim's with his mom for supper and this Friday night when he came out I had him a cake and some wine and presents and on Saturday we went to Rest. 99 for supper! :D Then, today (Sunday), we went to his mom's for cold plates and cake! So it's been a great birthday for him I think it's safe to say! I hope he enjoyed himself :)

I'm so happy to see the snow melting. I'm looking forward to when every last bit of it is gone. It's nice to see the grass again. Winter never has been my favorite season. The only thing I like about it is that every day is a sweater day!

Easter holidays are coming soon. I'm looking forward to having a few days off so I can sleep in and try to get some more tidying and rearranging done in my room. Also, I think I might go to St. John's for a couple of days and stay at B's, and spend some time with him in there. I'd really like to go downtown to get some breakfast and do some shopping. We'll see how things go I suppose.

I hope everyone is taking care of themselves. I'll mosey on again now.

*i didn't mean to hurt you/i'm sorry that i made you cry/i didn't want to hurt you/i'm just a jealous guy/i was feeling insecure/you might not love me anymore/i was shivering inside/i was shivering inside* - Jealous Guy - John Lennon

Mandy
xo

STOP! POLICE!

2006-03-21T23:49:00.000-03:30

Chris got his letter today! He wrote his test way back in June, almost a year ago, and had pretty much given up hope that he'd hear from the RCMP, but the letter came today! :) He has to get all his things in order and then he'll be off to Regina. It seems so unreal. He is so excited about it. We're all so excited about it!

I think that's it for now. Just wanted to let you all know! :D Take care!

Mandy
xo

Come and Knock on our Door...

2006-03-20T21:14:00.000-03:30

I adore "Three's Comapany". I now own seasons 1 through 5 on DVD. I can't help myself. Whenever I'm at Walmart I scout around for more of them. I think I have them all now so far. Gotta wait for season 6 to come out! Oh, but it will be mine! This weekend past, I was still trying to recover from my week long bout of the flu, so B and I lazed in bed for much of the weekend and watched tv. We were watching episodes from season 5 (cuz it's my newest purchase!). I know Jack is the central character but I've always preferred Janet. She's such a great character. So funny and clever and witty. She really brings out the laughs. Janet and Jack, two of the best tv characters ever! Those two and the gals from the Golden Girls! What ever would we have done as kids without those two shows I wonder?! Most tv today will never compare to the shows of the 70's and 80's!

Anyhoo, I'm finally rid of the fever and chills! I've been so so sick. Achy and grumpy :P My voice was gone again and I had a horrible cough that's still lingering but at least it's not keeping me up all night long anymore. My little Rory Boo was sick as well. Poor sweetie. On Friday we both rested all day. Me on the big couch and him on the love seat. Bless his boots, he had his little Winnie blanket out all wrapped around him, asking if he could "please have some more orange juice, Amanda".

I brought him to school today and the parents/guardians had to leave the classroom for more than half the session to attend a meeting and it was the first time the kids were by themselves with the teacher. I asked him after if he was nervous having to stay there alone and he said "I wasn't nervous Amanda, but I was nervous when you came back", so I asked him why and he told me "because I was excited to show you the picture I colored". Made me laugh! He's a darling :)

I believe that's it for now. I trust everyone is well and taking good care of themselves. Bye!

*...we've been waiting for you/where the kisses are hers and hers and his/three's company too*

Mandy
xo

Short Day

2006-03-13T14:44:00.000-03:30

I got home early today from work so I have lot's of free time on my hands! Both the boys are sick so Mrs. Shortall only went to school long enough to do her lesson plan for the substitute, and when she got home she told me I could go on home too. It's nice to get some time off unexpectedly but I don't like it that it's because Rory and Nolan are sick. Also, Nolan broke his wrist in gym class last week! He has a cast on for 4 weeks. He's none too impressed with it! :P

It's snowing again today. Big fluffy flakes. It looks so pretty, though I'm really very tired of all the snow. I wish it would all melt so some warmer weather could come. It'd be nice to be able to go out without a bulky coat on! I miss wearing my blazer type jackets!

I bought a wardrobe at Canadian Tire on Saturday, and B put it together for me on Sunday. He's so handy :) No matter what I buy he helps me out with it and puts it up for me. Bless his boots. What a sweetie. It's really nice too. There's a shlf in it on top and a bar for hanging clothes on and two doors so you can close it and everything is tidy because you can't see the clothes in it. It's very convenient, as dad couldn't build a closet into the room. I really like it.

I should go again I suppose. Take care everyone. Happy Birthday Sheldon! Hope you have a great day! :D

*wherever ther's a Mr. T, there's a fool waiting to be pitied*

Mandy
xo

Renovations

2006-03-06T18:04:00.000-03:30

So, I'm finally getting around to getting my bedroom done. Dad and Chris seperated the basement into two bedrooms, one each for me and Andrew, and I've been having a good time making it pretty! I have all the walls painted a very pretty shade of purple called 'Daybreak', and I have a new comforter to go on my brand new double bed! The comforter has a bunch of colors in it, purple being one of them and also red, so I chose red to be my accent color in the room and it's absolutely lovely. :)

I bought some red material and mom made me some window toppers and it really sets off the room. It actually looks like a bedroom now. Whole and homey and lived in. B has been helping me on the weekends when he's out and it's so nice to have someone to help me get things done! Yesterday he put together the vanity that I got for Christmas so now I have a place for my makeup and hair straightner and Chris put up some shelves for me on Saturday and I've been putting things up around. It's my own space and I have privacy and it smells pretty. :) The only thing left to do is to put up a door, and dad and Chris are going to do that for me when the weather gets a little nicer so they can get outside with the power saws and whatnot!

Monday past, Feb.27, I had the day off work so I decided to go to St. John's, as I haven't been there is ages and ages. Lynette has been working in there since December so I got a ride in and out with her. What a great day I had! B and I spent the whole day at the mall and we went to see a movie (Firewall, great movie), and we had lunch and went to the arcade (cuz he loves it!) and I, of course, did some shopping. I even dropped in at Jenn's work and saw her and chatted for a few minutes. It was so good to see her. I miss seeing everyone. I also got to introduce her to B which was nice. :)

Speaking of B, his birthday is coming up in a few weeks, on March 28th. I gotta think of something to get him. I already have something in mind that he knows about so I have to think of a surprise to go with it. It sucks that the 28th falls on a weekday. So we'll have to celebrate on the weekend I suppose. I wonder what we'll do...

Oh! Lynette asked me to stand at her wedding!! I have to give a speech welcoming her to our family and I get to wear a pretty dress! I'm really excited and it was really sweet of her to ask me. :)

I have become semi-addicted to the band Stabbing Westward. B introduced me to their music and I absolutely love it. I can't stop listening to their cd's. It's all I listen to these days!

Ok, I think I'm done for another little while. I hope everyone is well and happy. Take care of yourselves.

*but it's been so long since i have known the truth/these dreams we've left abandoned/and i'm haunted by your face/and the memory of your kisses, sweet kisses/do you remember?/i still remember so much/i remember never feeling so alive/do you remember?/i still can't forget your touch/we swore that we would never end/we knew our love transcended space and time*

Mandy
xo

I miss waking up beside you

2006-02-19T22:50:00.000-03:30

I haven't updated in a while. B was out all last week (he went back today) and we had a lovely time together celebrating Love Day and our 8 month anniversary :) We decided not to go out on the 14th because restarants would have been too crowded so we went to Rest. 99 on Friday night. My sweetie gave me the cutest bear in the world :) He's white and has a red sweater with strawberries on it and he actually smells like strawberries! I have cleverly named him Fraiser...(Fraise is the french word for strawberry!) He also gave me ladybug shaped chocolates! Cute! I loved having him here with me.

On Monday, the 27th, I have a day off because of the winter break, so if all goes as planned I am going to St. John's that day to hang out with B. We're probably going to see a movie and get something to eat. And I, of course, will shop! I already have my little list of things I want to look for made. I'm looking forward to it a lot.

On Saturday night we rented 'Saw 2'. It was great! I liked it much better than the first one. It's good to have someone to watch it with. You might need to cuddle in and cover your eyes a few times!

I'm off again I suppose. Take care everyone.

*so i memorized the color of your eyes/as i lost myself inside you/and i memorized the way our legs entwined/as i drifted off beside you/i miss/god i miss/waking up beside you*

Mandy
xo

Long Time!

2006-02-02T16:47:00.000-03:30

It seems like forever since I last posted! I've been having some computer troubles, but B has that all fixed for me now, thank goodness. I don't know what I'd do if I didn't have him to help me out with computer stuff. He's a sweetie for sure :)

I've had two days off because of the blizzard! I'm not a big fan of snow but I do enjoy snow days! It's hard to believe just last week we didn't have a flake of snow on the ground and now it's everywhere. I feel so bad for all the people I've seen out shoveling. Poor things. I imagine I'll be back to work tomorrow, just in time for the weekend!

B has been out all week with me, and he's going to come out again for all of Valentine's week. Our anniversary is on Friday the 17th, so I think we'll be celebrating Valentine's day and our anniversary on that night. Good times.

There isn't really anything else to talk about. I'm looking forward to Survivor tonight! And I'm loving American Idol. I'll mosey on again I suppose. Take care!

*lips are turning blue/a kiss that can't renew/i only dream of you/my beautiful/tip toe to your room/a starlight in the gloom/i only dream of you/and you never knew/sing for absolution/i will be singing/and falling from your grace/ooh* - "Sing for Absolution" - Muse

Mandy
xo

'Are you there'...?

2006-01-15T21:10:00.000-03:30

B left about a half hour ago to go back to Town. Sunday's are so hard. I miss him ever so much when he leaves. He doesn't really live so far away and I see him every weekend, but as soon as he's out the door the silence overwhelms me. It pushes me down and sits on my arms and legs and leaves me helpless and unable to move. I wander around and tidy imaginary messes in an attempt to keep myself busy so the lonliness won't envelope me completely. Another Sunday almost over. Monday starts the week anew. Six days will idly stroll by until he comes again.

Tuesday (Jan. 17th) is our little anniversary again! Seven months. This is most happiness I've known. I'm in a great relationship with someone I adore and who adores me. We get along so well, we have so much in common. He gets along great with my family (and they like him!!). I can't stop smiling. All is well :)

We had a lovely weekend. Shopping and visiting Gus at the hospital (he's doing much better), and going to Jungle Jim's for supper. The rest I'll leave to your lively imaginations! Chris and Lynette brought us some pics from Laurie's wedding. They developped beautifully.

*restless little one/comfortable and warm/let me fall apart/crippled in your arms/...are you there?/do you read me?/are you there?/i don't feel you anymore* - Are You There - Foo Fighters

Mandy
xo

Busy!

2006-01-04T20:14:00.000-03:30

Just a quick update about Christmas! This was the absolute best Christmas I've had in several years. It was relaxing and fun and I spent every day with B. Here's the quick rundown!...

Dec. 24: Had Christmas Eve supper at B's house. Came back to my house had snacks and exchanged gifts.

Dec. 25: Chris and Lynette came over and we all opened gifts. Pop (Gus) came for dinner. B came up in the evening and we spent time with A and J playing cards. What a laugh!

Dec. 26-30: We hung out and ate snacks and went shopping and played more cards with A and J! And we played A LOT of the Sims! (yes, I'm addicted again!)...On Dec. 30, Chris and Lynette got ENGAGED!! I'm so excited! B tells me I'm more excited than Lynette!! I don't know about that but I'm really happy for them :)

Dec. 31: B and I went to St. John's and hung out with R, H and F at F's apartment. We had a good view of downtown from his place so we stayed inside and watched the fireworks. We got to bed around 5 or so in the morning. We came out the next day and had turkey with all the trimmings here at my house.

Today I was back to work again. Rory was so excited to see me! I love him to pieces. He showed me all his new stuff that Santa brought him. I got Janice's gift in the mail today too. So cute, I love it! Thanks Jan. I hope you and Corey had a great Christmas. On Saturday B and I are going to Laurie's (Lynette's sister) wedding. Should be a good time. Take care everybody. Be safe.

*underneath the bridge/the tarp has sprung a leak/and the animals i've trapped/have all become my pets/and i'm living off of grass/and the drippings from the ceiling/it's ok to eat fish/'cause they don't have any feelings/something in the way, mmm/something in the way, yeah, mmm*

Amanda
xo

Merry Christmas All!

2005-12-25T20:01:00.000-03:30

Merry Christmas to everyone. I hope everybody had as lovely a Christmas as I did. I spent some of Christmas Eve at B's. His mom invited me down for supper. (They had their turkey that day instead of the 25th). I brought down a present for his mom and she gave me a comfy fleece blanket with a snowman on it. So nice for cuddling in to nap. We came back up here and had some snacks and exchanged our gifts we had for each other. Lovely lovely gifts.

I finally got to sleep around 3:00 in the morning and was expecting Jordan to wake me super early but nobody stirred (except Paul, but he doesn't count) until 8:30!! Chris and Lynette came over and we opened our presents and took pictures and ate toast. There were so many presents under our tree!! It was madness! Pop (Gus) came for dinner and Terrence called from Afghanistan. We weren't expecting to hear from him so it was a nice surprise.

Now B is here and I'm dropping tired (haha), but I think we're going to play some cards and eat some snacks and have a few drinks. The day will be done in a few hours...another Christmas over...time to get ready for next year I suppose! I hope everyone is celebrating like crazy and having lots of fun.

Take care of yourselves. Merry Christmas!!

*oh the weather outside is frightful/but the fire is so delightful/and since we've no place to go/let it snow, let it snow, let it snow*

Amanda
xo

Here comes Santa Claus!

2005-12-15T21:46:00.000-03:30

Man oh man, time is flying by. Just 10 days until Christmas! B is coming out this weekend and will be out until the third or fourth of January so I'm super excited. And Saturday is our six month anniversary :) We're gonna celebrate with some chocolate cake! I can't wait to see him. Ah, my sweet B...I adore him.

I think the Santa parade here in Clarke's Beach is this Saturday. Not sure if I'll go though. If it's anything like last years parade it won't be worth it anyway. It's a shame how our parade has gotten so crappy. I remember when I was a kid and the parade would go all through Clarke's Beach and it would be a bunch of floats and finally Santa. Then we'd go to the train station for loot bags. Last year there might have been four floats. It was kinda sad.

I think we might be going to St. John's next week for some last minute before Christmas shopping. I bet the mall is going to be crazy with people. I have all my shopping done so I'm just going to go and have a look around. I really just want to go to Second Cup for a yummy holiday coffee drink! :P

I hope everyone is happy and well. Take care of yourselves.

*i'm in love with a girl who's in love with the world/though i can't help but follow/though i know someday she is bound to go away/and stay over the rainbow/gotta learn how to let her go/over the rainbow/sometimes we forget who we got/who they are/oh, who they are not/there is so much more in love/than black and white/keep it loose child/gotta keep it tight*...'Keep it loose, Keep it tight', Amos Lee

Amanda
xo

The Excitement!

2005-12-10T19:49:00.000-03:30

I can't believe how close Christmas is! Two weeks from today Santa comes. It's very exciting! I finished my Christmas shopping today. I got everything I wanted for people and I stayed reasonably within my budget! (You know I went over by a little, but I didn't do too bad at all!) So, now I'm just waiting until I can give everyone their presents :)

I think I'm finally getting over the flu. My voice came back a couple of days ago but it's still not the best. If I say more than a few words at a time it cuts out! So then I have to repeat what I said. The coughing is the worst though. I haven't been sleeping well because the coughing is keeping me up. I'm hoping I'll be all better for Christmas.

B didn't get out this weekend and now he's gone to a party at a friends house, so I'm sitting about with a buch of stuff I could be doing not getting done! lol! I'm so lazy tonight. Maybe I'll finish up wrapping my gifts in a bit though. Try and shake the laziness.

Rory's birthday is Monday. Little cutie! :) He's so excited about turning four because after he turns four he'll turn five and then he can "go on the bus like Nolan, right Amanda?" His party is tomorrow but I think I'll wait to bring him his gift on Monday. That way he'll have something new on his actual birthday. I have him a Robert Munsch book about the first day of Kindergarten and the little girl's named Amanda. He's going to love that. He loves anything that has a character named Amanda or who has red hair like mine! He's a sweetie.

I'm really loving the song "Nothing Else Matters". It's a cover of a Metallica song done by Bif Naked. It's so great. I listen to it constantly. And I'm addicted to Sudoku puzzles! B found me a website with billions of them, haha, and I can't stop playing it. I think I'll mail my christmas cards on Monday.

Take care everybody. Bye bye for now.

*so close, no matter how far/couldn't be much more from the heart/forever trusting who we are/and nothing else matters/never opened myself this way/life is ours, we live it our way/all these words i don't just say/and nothing else matters/trust i seek and i find in you/every day for us something new/open mind for a different view/and nothing else matters*

Amanda
xo

Here I am..

2005-12-04T21:03:00.000-03:30

Sitting in my chair trying to think of everything that's happened since I last updated. It seems I can't get myself in the mood to even write anything here lately. I've become a blog procrastinator! Anyway, I'll try to remember the most interesting stuff, and see how it goes.

B was here all last week (for those of you who noticed I wasn't online at all!) He actually just left about half an hour ago to go back to Town. After having him here for so long it seems strange that he's not sitting next to me fiddling with my cell and downloading Christmas ring tones! I miss him a lot when he leaves. It was super good having him here. It's nice to be able to get a cuddle whenever you want one!

Mom had him helping her put up the tree the other day. Now the living room is all Christmasy :) She has most of her decorations put up and she's constantly finding more and bringing those upsatirs! It's madness and I love it! I'm really excited for Christmas this year (as I am every year) and I wish it was already here 'cause I hate having to wait to give everyone their gifts!

I was sick for most of the weekend...aches and shivers and grumpiness :P...thank jeebus I had B here to cuddle me and keep me warm...and put up with my "bad case of the grumps"!! He's quite the sweetie. I love him to pieces :) My sore throat is gone now and my voice went with it! It seems I have swollen vocal cords (mom had the same not long ago) and whenever I speak my voice vibrates. It sounds funny! Rory should have a good time laughing at it tomorrow.

I'm gonna mosey on again. I don't think I have anything else of interest to say. Take care of yourselves. Be good! Bye bye for now!

*It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas/Toys in ev'ry store/But the prettiest sight to see is the holly that will be/On your own front door*

Amanda
xo

Update Time!

2005-11-14T17:35:00.000-03:30

Sorry it's been a while since I last updated, Lesley!

I've been getting ready for Christmas and I'm very excited for it to get here! It seems everywhere I go there are decorations up and Walmart has their Christmas goodie aisle now! It won't be long before it's actually here. I have a bunch of gifts already bought and I'll probably be heading to Carbonear again this weekend to try and finish it off. I'm going to cross my fingers on that. Some people are so hard to shop for!

I went to St. John's for the Avalon Mall's 'Midnight Madness' this past Thursday night. My god, the place was packed. It was no less than I expected though. The heat was enough to knock you over, I swear. We got there at 7:55...just in time for me to get down to see Jenn!!! It was so nice to see her. It's been too long since I've seen anyone. Anyway, I got a hug and a little chat before she had to go catch her bus so I was happy enough :)

B came out with us that night and we had an extra day to hang out since I had a long weekend from work. We had a lovely weekend, as always :) I very much enjoy spending time with him. I miss him again now that he's back in Town for the week. I hope this week goes quickly.

Rory and I went to school this morning. He's in Kinderstart this year. It's hard to believe that when September comes he'll be in Kindergarten! His 4th birthday is coming up soon. He's growing up so fast. Like a weed as my mom would say! Speaking of mom, today is her birthday. *Happy birthday to my mom* Dad took her out to supper and we gave her some presents. I think she had a lovely day.

So, that's all my news for now. I'll try to update again sooner next time! Take care. Bye bye!

*i don't want to wonder/if this is a blunder/i don't want to worry whether/we're gonna stay together/'till we die*

Amanda
xo

Christmas!

2005-11-02T20:56:00.000-03:30

I heard the countdown to Christmas on the radio this morning!! I'm so excited! Eight weeks left to shop...so get shopping everybody. I can't wait for Christmas this year. I think it's going to be a good one.

Amanda
xo

Happy Halloween!

2005-10-31T15:58:00.000-03:30

Man oh man, it's been ages since I last posted. B was here for an entire week so I guess I just didn't think about it. He went back yesterday and it's so quiet here without him. I get so used to him being here, and he fits so well in this house! Jordan really likes him and practically mobs him every time he comes over! Poor thing, can't get a moments break!

I've started my Christmas shopping. And I have ideas about what I want to get everyone, so I'm feeling good about the gifts. I think we're going to St. John's in a couple of weeks to have a look and see what we can see. Most likely there won't be anything in there any better than what we'd find out here but it's still nice to go and look! Knowing me, I'll find something anyway!

I just ordered a bunch of stuff from Sears. Some new sweaters, of course. I'm really into green these days, and I ordered a pretty green turtleneck. Lynette's sister, Laurie, is getting married in January and I think I've found the outfit I want to wear. I might order that when my sweaters come. I'm looking forward to the wedding.

Rory and Nolan will be here soon to trick or treat and show me their costumes. Rory was excited like crazy all day! Cute little thing that he is :) I made them up a treat bag again this year. I found super cute little Halloween temporary tattoos. I think Nolan will enjoy those. Happy Halloween to you all!

*i want you to need me/like the air you breathe/i want you to feel me/in everything/i want you to see me/in your every dream/the way that i taste you feel you breathe you need you/i want you to need me/like i need you*

Amanda
xo

So Happy!

2005-10-20T16:54:00.000-02:30

B will be here in a couple of days and he's staying for an entire week. That is a rarity and I'm really excited about it. He's so sweet and he's so good to me. He makes me smile like nobody else does. I honestly can't remember a time when I've been happier than this.

This week has gone by rather quickly which is so good. I imagined it would creep slowly by, but here it is, Thursday already :D and I've been in a super mood all week! I love weeks like this!

I think I'm going to start Christmas shopping soon. I already have a little list made up of who I have to buy for and whatnot, and I do enjoy shopping...I can't wait to start looking for things for Rory. He's so fun to shop for.

Take care of yourselves. Have a great weekend! Bye bye!

*i don't care what you think about me/you'll get by without me if you want/well, i could be the one to take you home/baby we could rock the night alone*

Amanda
xo

My sweet B...

2005-10-17T16:37:00.000-02:30

Today is a little anniversary for B and myself. Four months since our 'first date' which we've been saying is how long we've been together :) It's amazing how much you can come to care about someone in so little time. And even though it's been mere months, it feels as though you've known each other a lifetime, and have the comfort of people who've been together for years and years. Nothing makes me happier than to see him come from Town and have him wrap his arms around me and kiss my forehead like he so often does. In just a few short days he'll be back again. Weekend come quickly...

I ran into Miss Janice online last night! First time I've spoken to her in at least a month and a half. It was quite nice to chat with her. I miss her lots.

I don't really have much else to say for today so I think I'll mosey on again. Take care of yourselves. Be safe and happy! :) Bye bye everyone.

And now, in honor of B's little obsession with Jason Mraz :P here's the lyrics to one of Mr A to Z's songs that I like!...

*and it takes no time to fall in love/but it takes you years to know what love is/and it takes some fears to make you trust/it takes those tears to make it rust/it takes the dust to have it polished/ah la la la la la la life is wonderful/ah la la la la la la life goes full circle/ah la la la la la la life is wonderful/ah la la la it is so...*

Amanda
xo

Another weekend over

2005-10-10T22:35:00.000-02:30

This weekend, like every other weekend before it, flew by in what seemed to be a few minutes. B came out from Town on Saturday and we went to Jungle Jim's for supper and had a very lovely date. Though the service was extremely slow it was nice just sitting there with him...chatting and relaxing. We pretty much spent the whole weekend hanging out, and B fixed up the computer for me so now it's running like a dream! The man is a whiz...he can fix anything, I swear :) Now he's gone back to Town again but it's a short week thanks to the long weekend. He'll be back before too long. And Monday is a little anniversary for us! Four months :)

I had a couple of shopping days last week. It'd been a while since I'd gone! I got a few pairs of jeans and the greatest cardigan sweater and a very pretty purse. Also the new Melissa cd...which I've listened to a bunch of times :) And, of course, some Halloween treats for my boys.

Being back here at mom's hasn't been too bad. I'm trying not to let Paul get to me too much. I don't spend a whole lot of time with him anyway. Between me being at work and him being at school, I really only have to see him at suppertime, so it works out well! And I think mom is really happy to have me here. She's a sweetie.

I suppose I should mosey on again. Have a good week all. Bye bye for now. Oh! I'm really into the song 'Gunnin' by Hedley. I love it!

*and i feel like i'm fine today/i feel like i'm ready to take this on/and i'll fight you to the grave for it/i'll never let you take a part of me with you/and i'm gunnin' for you/i'm gunnin' for you/and i will wait, i'll write another letter to myself/and i will find out that morning comes faster alone*

Amanda
xo

Moving!

2005-10-02T22:22:00.000-02:30

It's been a very busy time! I'm finally moved back in to mom's and you seriously wouldn't believe how much stuff I have!! I was amazed. I don't know what I would have done if B hadn't been here to help move it all. He is a sweetie indeed.

We had a great week together at my place, but it went way too fast. I loved having B with me. It was lovely to have someone to come home to after work. And cooking for two is much better than cooking for one!

I finally have most of my things unpacked and arranged the way I want it. My first morning was the way I expected it to be! Paul woke me up by banging around on the floor in his room! Oh my...it begins.

I think the upcoming weekend is a long weekend. Makes me happy. Take care of yourselves and be safe!

*yeah, she caught my eye/as we walked on by/she could see from my face that I was,
flying high/and I don't think that I'll see her again/but we shared a moment that will last till the end/you're beautiful/you're beautiful/you're beautiful, it's true*

Amanda
xo

Flu

2005-09-22T17:21:00.000-02:30

I haven't updated in a while, though I keep meaning to do it. I've had the flu for about two weeks and I'm only now starting to get over it. Between work and being sick I've just been so tired. And, to top it off, B is sick too!! It's what he gets for spending the weekend with sickly me! He says it was worth it. He's so very sweet :)

There hasn't really been too much excitement around here lately. Amanda has been here a few times with prospective renters to look at the house, and she's finally found one. It's unbelievable how quickly the end of the month is creeping up on me!

I'm really looking forward to this weekend. I could definitely use a sleep in, and my Sweetie will be coming to stay with me. I just adore him and spending time with him makes me so happy. I start looking forward to Saturday night cuddles the minute he leaves me on Sunday night to go back to Town. Oh my...

***Lesley, I understand your SATC addiction...I have one too! I absolutely love that show and the four girls. I've gotten so involved in the characters, it's almost like they are my real friends! I've seen every episode from every season a bunch of times. I make sure to watch it every week on TBS and now, thanks to B, I own the first two season with more on the way! (bless his boots!) It's a little disappointing to know that "Bigs" name is John. I figured it would have been something much more exotic, but oh well! I'm glad he and Carrie get together in the end. Though I did like Aiden as well...oh my!!***

That's about it for now. Take care of yourselves. Bye bye.

*Wise men say only fools rush in/But I can’t help falling in love with you/Shall I stay/Would it be a sin/If I can’t help falling in love with you/Like a river flows surely to the sea/Darling so it goes/Some things are meant to be/Take my hand, take my whole life too/For I can’t help falling in love with you*

Amanda
xo

Home again, Home again

2005-09-11T22:10:00.000-02:30

I'm back from St. John's and I'm super lonely! I had a great time with B last night. We went to the mall for a few hours and then went back to his place and just hung out and ate snacks and watched tv...and pretty much stayed up all night :)

We came out to my place for a few hours today, and then he had to go back to Town. I don't know what I'm going to do with myself all week. It can be quite boring here at times especially at night. I do love being here by myself for a couple of hours after work though.

It is so so cold tonight. I actually turned the heat on in my bedroom...cause lord knows I'll be cold in my bed!! It'd be nice to have someone to cuddle with to keep me warm...I hope the weekend comes quickly!

Take care everyone.

*you could almost touch heaven/right there in front of you/liberty just slipped away on us/now there's so much work to do/oh the door that closes tightly/is the door that can swing wide/oh no/oh no/not expecting to collide*

Amanda
xo

Cancelled

2005-09-10T11:54:00.000-02:30

The Tea Party concert has been cancelled due to some emergency. I'm a little sad. I was really looking forward to going. I've had a crush on Jeff (the lead singer) for years!! It would have been nice to get a look at him in person! Oh well...hopefully the concert will be rescheduled or something.

I'm going to St. John's for the night anyway and staying with B :) I can't wait to see him! It feels like it's been forever since I last saw him, and really it's only been since Sunday! I think I'll get him to go to the mall...it won't seem right if I'm in Town and don't visit the mall!

BB tonight! I was so glad when Janelle got HOH the other night. I am so into that show. I never miss an episode! I'm torn between the three women as to who I want evicted. I want each of them gone for different reasons. It would kick ass if Janelle got HOH again next week and was guaranteed to be in the final two. Oh my, I'm rambling on about a tv show!

September seems to be scooting by. Before I know it I'll be back at mom's. It's going to be a change for sure. I'll survive it. I'm tough!

I should go get some lunch and then get ready to go to St. John's :) Have yourselves a great weekend.

*with nothing to do you'd waste away/obscure in exile/they've witnessed the times/you've gone astray/who's fault? now you're thinking/there's nothing to prove/a message from the crowd to the shore/and it feels now/just like heaven's coming down*

Amanda
xo

Because of You

2005-09-08T19:44:00.000-02:30

My first week of work is almost done. I'm looking forward to this weekend so much. I can't wait to go to St. John's on Saturday so I can see B :) I miss him. And the concert is that night, so it should be a good time. Rory and I are right back into our routine. He's being all cute and telling me that he loves me and giving me hugs and kisses. I'm telling you, even though I detest early rises, I don't mind getting up in the mornings these days just because I know I'm going to spend the day with him! He's growing like crazy and he'll soon be 4!!! He's such a great kid :)

I must say, I'm really enjoying living on my own. I love coming home after work to an empty, quiet house. I can turn the tv on to what ever channel I want and there's no booming music and I don't have that contrary person to deal with! It's just so nice. Pretty soon I'll be back at mom's. I've been trying to prepare myself for it and I think I'll be ok. I know Paul is going to bug me, but I'm going to TRY to not let it get me down (at least not all the time!). Then, when June comes, we'll see what happens. I may just move back to St. John's!

The only thing I don't like about being here by myself is how lonely it is at night. After a few hours alone I start wanting conversation and cuddles! And I hate cooking for one. It's no fun at all.

Oh man...did anyone watch Oprah on Tuesday and Wednesday? It was about Katrina and it was so so sad. I cried my eyes out. I hadn't really been following the news reports and I had no idea things were as bad as they are. Some of the things that the mayor of New Orleans told Oprah were horrific. Even when they're fighting for their lives people do sick sick things.

I'm gonna mosey on. Take care of yourselves. Be safe and have a great weekend!

*i watched you die/i heard you cry/every night in your sleep/i was so young/you should have known better than to lean on me/you never thought of anyone else/you just saw your pain/and now i cry/in the middle of the night/for the same damn thing*

Amanda
xo

Wake me up when September Ends

2005-09-05T21:44:00.000-02:30

It's officially my last day of summer. I'm back to work tomorrow morning bright and early. I don't know how I'm going to get back into the routine of getting up at 6:40. I'm so used to sleeping in super late! I'm going to be tired for a while I bet!

B left today to go back to St. John's. We had an excellent week here. We ate snacks, watched tv and movies, went to supper at K's house and went to mom's. We lazed about and had a lovely time. Nothing beats cuddling under a blanket with the person you love :) I'm a little lonely here without him now that he's gone...but it's a short week and I'll be seeing him again really soon, and we'll be going to the Tea Party concert!!! And B, sweetie that he is, made me a picture to bring to the Hidden Treasures store to have a Tea Party t shirt made. I'm so looking forward to this concert.

I soon have to start packing my things and I'm not really looking forward to it. You don't realize how much crap you have until you have to pack it all up. I am looking forward to re-arranging it all though when I get to mom's.

I think that's it from me for now. I'm going to go on and watch some tv, waste some time until it's time for bed! Lesley, I read in your blog that Mike got his call and is gone. Congratulations to him and a HUGE HUG for you. I know how sad you feel but don't worry, it'll get better...*hug*.

*i close my eyes, only for a moment, and the moment's gone/all my dreams, pass before my eyes, a curiosity/dust in the wind, all they are is dust in the wind/same old song, just a drop of water in an endless sea/all we do, crumbles to the ground, though we refuse to see/dust in the wind, all we are is dust in the wind*

Amanda
xo

Rory Boo

2005-09-02T16:02:00.000-02:30

I was back to work today. I had such a great day too! I love those boys to death. They're so sweet and so cute and so bitable! :) Rory is my little man. He kept telling me that he loves me and giving me hugs. He even asked me to sleep over! He offered me his parents bed to sleep in...he said that they could sleep at school...haha! Now I have a long weekend and am back for the year on Tuesday. I can't wait to spend my days with my little Rory Boo :D

Chris and Lynette moved out yesterday. The house is in such a state...everything is everywhere and it's so messy. I'm actually looking forward to going back to mom's (a little!). Dad's doing up the basement for me and Andrew. Putting down new flooring and a new ceiling and dividing it into two bedrooms! With walls and everything! Now I'll have privacy when I'm there which was one of the big things that was turning me off of going back. I'm staying here until the end of the month though. It'll be different...I've never lived on my own before.

B is here with me now. He's staying until Sunday or Monday. So at least my first couple of days alone aren't so lonely, ya know! I'm looking forward to spending a lazy weekend with him. Maybe we'll watch some movies and tomorrow night is chinese food and Big Brother! Hanging out with him kicks ass! (lol!) We like so many of the same things. It's lovely...he's lovely :)

It's so rainy and humid today. I think I'm going to melt. I can't wait to shower later, though it'll probably be a waste of my time. I hate showering in this weather. I feel so grimy and uncomfortable. Thank god for my gigantic fan that my dad bought me! Bless his boots!

Anyhoo, I must be off. Take care of yourselves and be good. Bye bye!!

*oh, when you're cold/i'll be there to hold you tight to me/when you're on the outside baby and you can't get in/i will show you, you're so much better than you know/when you're lost, when you're alone and you can't get back again/i will find you darling, and i'll bring you home*

Amanda
xo

Gross Day

2005-08-29T21:28:00.000-02:30

B is gone back to St. John's. He came out on Saturday and spent the weekend here with me. We went to K's for supper yesterday and went out for ice cream with Chris and Lynette last night. I know this is what it's going to be like from now on. Waiting and waiting all week for him to come out only to have the weekend zoom by. It sucks, but I guess we'll have to learn to like it. I'm going in Town on Wednesday and as far as I know he'll be coming back out with me. So we'll get to spend some time together before work and school starts up again.

My Tea Party tickets came in the mail today. Less then two weeks until the concert. I really can't wait. I think it's going to be a great time!

Chris and Lynette have decided to move in together in their own place. I haven't seen it yet but it sounds really nice. The only shitty thing about it is I can't afford to stay here alone. So, I'll be moving back to mom's on September 30th unless I can find another place between now and then. So far I've had no luck. There aren't very many available (and suitable!) places in C.B. Wish me luck please! I'd rather live in my own place as much as I love mom (lol)!

I finished reading Harry Potter tonight. It was a great book, just like the other five! I can't believe what happened at the end though. I won't ruin it in case somebody hasn't read it yet. I hope the seventh book comes quickly. I'm dying to know how the whole thing will end.

The weather is getting grosser and grosser. We didn't really have much nice weather this summer anyway, but it's starting to get colder. And already I am sick! I think it might just be allergies but it feels like the flu. In any case, I feel crappy today.

Take care everybody. Be good.

*when i cry/when i am sad/i think of every awful thing i ever did/when i cry/there is no love/no, there is nothing that can comfort me enough/when i cry/cry/cry*

Amanda
xo

Tea Party!

2005-08-23T16:44:00.000-02:30

I'm so excited today! I phoned earlier and bought tickets for the Tea Party! So, on September 10th, B and I will be in the same room with the Tea Party :D I can't stop smiling. It's going to be an awesome show!

I can't believe it's only Tuesday. It seems the week always goes by slowly when I'm waiting for B to come back from St. John's! It'll be better once I start work again. At least I'll be busy during the day with Rory :) and it will be no time and the weekends will be here.

I'm so in the mood to go downtown! I've been like that for the past week. I haven't been to a club in forever. I just want to be in that atmosphere...dim lights, loud music, loads of people, dancing, drinks! We went to the Cozy Glow the other night and played pool. It wasn't too bad. I'd never been there before, and it was quite fun!

I can't wait for Big Brother to come on tonight. I'm such a geek...but I love that show!

Well, take care of yourselves and be good. Bye bye!

*driven by restrained desire/i want what i need/shaking as her sex takes hold/i've lost all control/temptation/temptation/*

Amanda
xo

Great Week

2005-08-21T19:46:00.000-02:30

Sorry I haven't updated in a week! Chris and Lynette went camping for a week and I had the place to myself. B was here with me from Wednesday to today (Sunday), so I had other things to be doing!! :D Having B here with me was so nice. We ate lots, and spent all our time together and had this amazingly fun time. We have so much in common and I really enjoy being with him. He makes me smile. Now he's gone to St. John's. He's moving in there because he starts school in a couple of weeks. It's going to be an adjustment for sure. I'll have to get used to seeing him only on the weekend. It'll be alright though :)

Mom and I went to get pop from the hospital on Friday. Now he's settling in to the seniors home here in Clarke's Beach (the new one). It's so beautiful there. High ceilings, rooms with comfortable couches and lamps and pictures and paintings where you can sit and visit. Pop has his own bedroom with his own bathroom. It's lovely and it's only 5 minutes away. He likes that because we're still close by. I'm really glad he had a good attitude about going to live there. Now mom has so much less worry.

The Tea Party are going to be in St. John's on Sept. 10 and I AM GOING!!!!!!!!! I am so excited! They were here in May and I didn't know about it until it was too late to get a ticket and I was so disappointed. I'm going to make sure I go this time! I'll get B to go with me...ohh, what an awesome time we will have :D

I spent all day Thursday with Rory. The Shortall's went to Town with Nolan to get him some back to school stuff. So, Rory and I had a great day. It amazes me how much he's grown since June! And he's so smart. I've never heard a three year old who speaks as plainly as he does. He told me that I'm his best girl! And he loves me! I ask you, what in the world is better than hearing a gorgeous and sweet little boy tell you he loves you while he's giving you a hug and a kiss?? Nothing, that's what!! :) He couldn't be any sweeter if he tried! And he has a big boy bed. He was so proud of it when he was showing it to me.

Now life is back to normal. B is gone, Chris and Lynette are back, and I'm here being bored (lol). Looking forward to the weekend when B comes out so we can do stuff! Take care of yourselves and have a good week.

This song is for B. The George Michael version of course!...

*roxanne/you don't have to put on the red light/those days are over/you don't have to sell your body to the night/roxanne/you don't have to wear that dress tonight/walk the streets for money/you don't care if it's wrong or right/roxanne/you don't have to put on the red light...*

Amanda
xo

For B...

2005-08-14T20:52:00.000-02:30

I have very recently realized exactly just how lucky I am to have found B. To have someone who is so amazing, and so loving, and so forgiving is a rare thing. I think I'm going to start crying right now! I can't stop thinking about what we talked about last night, and I just want you to know that I lovers you much...so much. Ok, that's all I have to say about that.

Chris and Lynette are gone for a whole week! They both have their holiday from work. So, here I am all by my lonesome. B is gone to St. John's until Tuesday, so I'll have to spend the next couple of days by myself. I can't wait for B to get back though so he can spend a few days with me. I'm going to get a bunch of groceries and cook us some lovely meals :)

Gus has steadily been feeling better I am very relieved to report. I went to see him today and he was out of bed and sitting in his chair and walking around. He's back to his sarcastic joking too (lol) so we know he's feeling better!

Take care of yourselves everybody. Be safe and be good! Bye bye.

*i'm pulled down by the undertow/i never thought i could feel so low/oh darkness i feel like letting go/if all of the strength and all of the courage/come and lift me from this place/i know i could love you much better than this/full of grace/full of grace/my love*

Amanda
xo

Sad

2005-08-11T15:50:00.000-02:30

It's been a crazy couple of days. On Tuesday, mom had to go with Gus (my pop) in the ambulance to the hospital. He'd been having trouble breathing and when they got there they were told that he had a lot of fluid on his lungs and his blood pressure was really high. We later found out that he'd had a heart attack. He's still in the hospital and they're keeping him there for at least a week. I went with mom to see him yesterday and it broke my heart. He looked so small in his bed and he looked scared. When we were leaving I kissed his forehead and told him I'd see him later, and he grabbed my hand and looked so lonely. I hated to leave him there. It's so hard to see him that way.

I went with B last night to his friends house. Met some of his friends. I think I made a good first impression (lol) They seemed to like me well enough. I liked his friend L. She was really nice, and she reminds me of Jennifer N. So, we got along very well. I'm looking forward to seeing her again tomorrow night at B's.

I think that's about it for me for now. Take care and be safe everyone. Think healing thoughts for Gus, please. Bye.

*you can catch me while i'm sleepin', darlin/while i'm dreamin' too/it's a lonely, lonely, lonely place for me baby/it must get lonely for you too*

Amanda
xo

Hotness

2005-08-09T14:28:00.000-02:30

It's another hot day out there. I wish it would just cool down. Heat and sun makes me feel so hot and uncomfortable and contrary (lol!). If it never got past 15 degrees I would be happy. Jeans and sweater weather all year long would kick ass!

I went to Town yesterday with mom and Paul. He didn't irritate me as much as I thought he would! After his appointment at the Janeway was over we went to the mall and I shopped :D Mmm I love to shop. I bought the most goegeous leather boots at Transit. I can't wait to wear them.

I think I am going to a party tomorrow night. At a friend of B's. Then I'll be going to B's party on Friday night. Seems I'm going to be quite the little partier :p

Now I'll scoot. I'm talked out for the moment. Take care and be safe.

*so, go on, go on, come on leave me breathless/tempt me, tease me, until i can't deny/this loving feeling/make me long for your kiss/go on, go on, yeah, come on*

Amanda
xo

Good Times

2005-08-06T18:29:00.000-02:30

I'm waiting for B to get here. So I decided to update while I wasted some time. Not a lot going on really. Finn is here! Laurie's dog. Chris and Lynette are dogsitting for the weekend and they're gone to St. John's for the evening so the dogsitting duty has been passed to me! :D B and I are going to take him for a walk. It's a beautiful evening.

The sunburn on my chest is healing somewhat. It's still really tender and sore but it's peeling. I can't leave it alone! My arms and face have such a pretty color. I'm usually so ghostly white that any shade darker impresses me! So, I'm happy enough with it.

The Alanis Acoustic cd is super good. I'd forgotten how great the songs on that cd are. I love in "Ironic" how she changes the line..."it's like meeting the man of my dreams and then meeting his beautiful wife" to "...meeting his beautiful husband". Makes me smile :)

B's cousin is coming home from Ontario tomorrow. She's staying for three weeks or so. I'm looking forward to meeting her and hanging out and whatever. I think B might be having another one of his awesome parties that I keep hearing about but have never had the fortune of attending! So, I am a little excited about that!

I suppose that's it for now. I'll mosey on again. Take care of yourselves. Enjoy the lovely evening. *Happy anniversary Sheldon and Jenn* Bye bye for now.

*and there i go jumping before the gunshot has gone off/slap me with a splintered ruler/and it would knock me to the floor if i wasn't there already/if only i could hunt the hunter*...*and i am frightened by the corrupted ways of this land/if only i could meet the maker/and i am facinated by the spiritual man/i am humbled by his humble nature*

Amanda
xo

Shopping Day Goodness

2005-08-03T22:54:00.000-02:30

My shopping day was a complete success!! I bought so many things and spent so much money. I came home exhausted and happy! (lol) We went in because mom had an eye appointment at the clinic right next to the McDonald's just up the road from Sheldon's old apartment. So, since that was the end of town we were on, we went to Stavanger Drive and stayed there for the whole day.

I never knew there were so many good stores up there. I finally got my Argyle (diamond design) sweater! I found it at Reitman's. It's black with light green diamonds. So pretty. Found myself some bras that actually fit properly! I was so excited to find them that I bought 3!! I bought some other clothes too and Alanis's " Jagged Little Pill" acoustic cd.

Developped my film from the Klondyke Concert. :D I got some good pictures, and a couple of really good close up ones of Jacob. I'm in my glee!

B came up last night and we lazed around as usual! Played some scrabble (and I kicked his butt AGAIN!!) and we watched The Golden Girls. We watch that show every night! We're geeks for the gals! Today we went to Bay Robert's and when we were at Powell's we saw the sexiest man ever!!! He was wearing a black vest, shorts, black sneakers, and black Nike socks...pulled right up to his knees. Oh man, I'd do him! (haha)

Well, I'll be off again I suppose. Chris and Lynette are going to E&E for food and I think I'll get some too. Take care. Talk to you soon.

*take it easy/take it slow/i'll take you anywhere you wanna go/places never seen before/cause i love ya/i need ya/and i'll do my best to please ya/our love can open any door*

Amanda
xo

I'm Bringing Pickles!

2005-08-01T17:13:00.000-02:30

It's another lovely day, and here I am inside. I wish like crazy that it was Fall. My absolute favorite time of the year. All this hot sun is killing me! The sunburn that I got at the concert is soo painful. I actually have a cluster of blisters on my chest just above my left breast! I'm sure some of you remember that wicked burn I had a few years ago...when my legs were badly burned...well, my chest is almost that bad now. Not quite, thank god. I've been having trouble sleeping because no matter how I lie down I feel uncomfortable.

Tomorrow is shopping day :D I haven't been to St. John's to shop in ages and ages. Old Navy here I come!! Lynette saw some of those sweaters with the diamond design on them. I've been wanting one of those since last year. Hopefully I'll be coming home with one!

I got my hair cut the other day. I'm still not sure how I feel about it. Everyone is telling me that they like it and that it's really nice, and I kinda like it too but I think I just have to get used to it. I always get this way over my hair anyway (lol) I'm very picky and never satisfied!! However, I do really like it when I dry it and make it curly. It's really pretty like that :)

I'm off again. Take care of yourselves. Bye bye for now.

*let's make love/all night long/until all our strength is gone/hold on tight/don't let go/i want to feel you in my soul/until the sun comes up/let's make love*

Amanda
xo

Klondike Concert

2005-07-31T16:22:00.000-02:30

Yesterday was awesome! Mom and I went to the Klondike concert and had such a great time. First of all, we parked on the Beaver Plaza parking lot, and we were going to get the bus to the field. The linup for that bus was HUGE so we decided to walk. Probably not such a good idea as I was wearing sandals! By the time I got there my feet were killing me, and I have a large blister in the same spot on both of my feet!!

The crowd at the field was massive. We met up with a couple of people that we know and they told us that the end of the line for the admission gate was all the way down to Kelly's Landing!!!! We went up to a volunteer and sure enough he told us that it didn't matter if we already had a ticket, we still had to go to the end of the line. We were not impressed at all. Apparently there had been people lined up since 8 in the morning. The line was so long and moving so slowly that people were missing the concert just trying to get in. We were going to go to the end of the line but I said it was pointless. We would end up missing the acts we'd come to see, so we went back with the people we know and were trying to figure out a way to get in.

Then, a miracle happened!!! We heard a siren and they blocked the line so that a fire truck could get through. So, badasses that we are, we went up to the front part of the line and totally cut in and got inside withing five minutes!!!! I felt horrible that we cut and got in before some people who had been waiting for ages and ages, but we paid our money too! It was horribly organized and there were many people complaining. Anyway...

We missed all of Jason Greeley and most of Theresa Sokyrka, but I managed to get a few pics of her. Then Kalan Porter came on. Holy crap, he is the tiniest man I have ever seen! He was so cute and his hair was awesome! All bouncy and curly :) And he put on a cowboy hat! So cute. He sounded really good and he's an amazing fiddle player. We got a bunch of pics of him as well.

Next was Jason McCoy. I'm really glad we got to see him. He gives an awesome show. Sounds just the same as on the radio, and he's so much better looking in person then on tv! He had the crowd going wild!

Then, the man I went to see!! Jacob came on. I'll admit that I was screaming a bit with the chickies!! (lol) His band Hedley is amazing. All four of the guys were super good looking. I took a full roll of film of just them! He was just as crazy in person as he was on Canadian Idol...sticking out his ass and doing his crazy arm movements while he sang. I was in heaven! (lol)

We left after that and came home. I'm sunburned so badly. The volunteers were spraying the crowd with hoses to cool them off and my chest got wet and burned. I can't wait for the redness to dull down a little so I can have a bit of a tan!

Well, that concludes my exciting day! Hope everyone had a great weekend. Take care.

*southern moonlight, southern daughter, she led me down to the water. as we lay on that cool white sand, i was born again in dixieland*

Amanda
xo

Honestly

2005-07-28T23:34:00.000-02:30

The heat in this house tonight is killing me. I feel like stripping down to nothing and just lying on my bed and letting the fan blow over me! It's been looking rainy to me and I wish it would pour from the sky and wash away the heat. Thunder would be nice as well.

I found a really nice hairstyle in a magazine and I'm going to try it out on me. Tomorrow if I can get an appointment. It has a sweepy bang and I already have that so it shouldn't be too much of a change. Though it is quite a bit shorter than I have right now! I want a change though. My hair has been the same for ages and I'm ready for something new. I'm a little excited about getting it done :) *crosses fingers* I hope it comes out ok.

I'm up by myself tonight. B is gone home for a night and I'm lonely without him. It feels strange when he's not here with me. The night is quiet and boring and still. Even if we're doing nothing but watch tv, it's just nice to know he's here.

I heard it's supposed to rain on Saturday, which sucks. I don't want to look like a drowned rat at the concert! I think we're really only going so we can see the Canadian Idols, so I probably won't be there terribly long anyway.

Anyhoo, take care of yourselves. Bye bye for now.

*and there are voices that want to be heard/so much to mention but you can't find the words/the scent of magic/the beauty that's been/when love was wilder than the wind*

Amanda
xo

Sitting Around

2005-07-25T16:25:00.000-02:30

Another weekend over. I'm wondering where the summer has gone. I swear, days never go by as quickly when you're lonely and bored! It seems that if you actually have fun and exciting things to do, nature speeds up time! There's pretty much only a month left and then I'll be back to work again. I'm looking forward to it though. I'm missing seeing my little Rory Boo every day!

This past weekend was quite nice. The party that I was supposed to go to with B was cancelled, but we went to a BBQ at his mom's boyfriends house. That was an interesting time, indeed! I was impressed with how un-shy I was! His family seems to like me, which is nice for a change :) B told me that he caught K, his mom's bf, staring at my chest quite a bit! (lol) I guess I can't really blame him ;) We went to B's house after that for a few hours. I really enjoy spending time with him. Being with him is so relaxing and comfortable. *smile* I just love it. He makes me feel so good.

Now my little B is gone to St. John's for the night. He'll be back tomorrow though. So, until then, I'll have to find things to do to amuse myself! Perhaps I'll FINALLY start my Harry Potter book. I never seem to get a chance to read it (lol)

My lord I've been doing a bunch of shopping lately! :-D The fall clothes are starting to come out in the stores and those are my absolute favorite clothes. I have so many new things to wear. I'm all happy! I bought another one of those cute short, blazer type jackets that I adore. It's light green and corduroy...so pretty. So very pretty :) And on August 8th, Paul has an appointment in Town, so mom and I have a shopping spree planned for that day!! I'm so excited it's crazy! I'm gonna shop like the devil's at my feet!

Saturday is the Klondike concert. Should be a good time. Mom is going this year. We're looking forward to seeing the Canadian Idols. *blush* Yes, we're geeks! But we're comfortable with it!! (lol)

Ok, I think I'm all talked out! Take care of yourselves and have a great week. Bye bye.

...I hope this post is long enough Lesley...xoxo

*so sally can wait/she knows it's too late as we're walking on by/her soul slides away/but don't look back in anger/i heard you say*

Amanda
xo

Lazy

2005-07-21T21:55:00.000-02:30

I can't believe how lazy I am right now! I'm watching "Big Brother 6". I get really into that show. I enjoy Janelle. That chick is awesome...so clever and funny. Just my luck, she'll be evicted tonight and I won't have anybody to root for! I love watching her when she's in the diary room. She says the funniest things.

B has been up almost every night this week. He's gone home tonight, but will probably be back tomorrow! I've been having the greatest time this summer. It's amazing how different my summer has turned out from how I imagined it would be. I assumed it would be a long, boring summer, but I've been busy (and happy!) everyday. :)

...Yay! Janelle wasn't evicted!!...

Some of B's friends are having a party this weekend and he wants me to go. I think I might. I haven't met any of his friends yet and I'm a little nervous! Though, from what he tells me, they think it's awesome that he's dating an older woman! (haha) Oh my...

I'm off again. Have a good weekend. Take care...be safe.

*i will risk everything/i will fight i will bleed/i will lay down my life if that's what you need/every second i live that's the promise i make/baby that's what i'll give if that's what it takes*

Amanda
xo

These words are my own...

2005-07-15T20:36:00.000-02:30

I love you, I love you, I love you! I enjoy that song very much. Catchy and cute :) There's really not much going on around these parts. I just wanted to update. I'm feeling a little bored. This week went so quickly and I feel like I haven't really done anything but be lazy!

Tomorrow the new Harry Potter book is available and I simply can't wait to buy it. I'm like a kid waiting for Christmas when it comes to those books. Apparently there's going to be a lot of surprises in this one. I'm looking forward to reading it.

Terrence and Kari are gone back home now. I really enjoyed meeting her. She's such a sweet girl...and so funny. I loved listening to her stories about when she was younger, told with her beautiful accent.

Went to B's house last night. Ohh, the movies on the computer! (LOL) We went to the beach near his house and sat for a bit. I love to be near the water. So calming.

I'm gonna scoot I think. Not much more to say. Take care...be safe.

*blue, blue windows behind the stars/yellow moon on the rise/big birds flying across the sky/throwing shadows on our eyes/leave us...helpless, helpless, helpless*

Amanda
xo

Another night...

2005-07-11T21:49:00.000-02:30

...and here I am by myself. B went home tonight. I can't complain, though. He did spend the last two nights here with me! Bless his boots. He kept me company while Chris and Lynette went to the wedding and then went to her cabin for the night. Mmmm...he's the best company. It's always comfortable and always exciting. I just love being with him.

He's the cutest, ever! Found me the perfect nail polish. Lime green...I couldn't find it anywhere around here! So now I have cute lime green toenails :) I love it!

He's met the whole family...crazy bunch that they are! Daisy (the cat) seems to like him, and Peaches (the dog) seems a little scared of him. (lol) I'm sure she'll warm to him eventually. She's only seen him once! My little B! He makes me smile...

I think that's about it for now. I don't have anything else of interest to talk about. Take care...be safe.

*the dawn is breaking/a light shining through/you're barely waking/and i'm tangled up in you*

Amanda
xo

Feelings

2005-07-10T16:53:00.000-02:30

Ohh...I am so happy today...and I was yesterday...and I will be tomorrow! It's amazing how meeting the right person can make you feel so good. I have become so comfortable with B in such a short time that it amazes me. I'm usually so, cautious, I guess would be the word. Waiting to get to know someone before I let myself do anything, or say anything, or whatever.

But with him it all feels very right (cliche!) and I'm just going with it. Fast or not, I like how I'm feeling and I like how he makes me feel. I haven't been in a relationship in a while and I'm glad I didn't rush into anything just because I was sad or feeling unattractive because I'd been dumped! (lol) I'm happy that I took my time, and got over all my stuff. Now I can just enjoy being with him...and I enjoy it very much.

The rain today is crazy! I had to run through it to the car and I was soaked wihin seconds! The thunder and lightning was awesome! I feel like going for a walk in it later. Nothing sweeter than kissing in the rain :)

Enjoy the week everyone. Take care of yourselves. *smile lot's*

*yes you're lovely, with your smile so warm/and your cheeks so soft/there is nothing for me but to love you/and the way you look tonight/with each word your tenderness grows/tearing my fear apart.../and that laugh that wrinkles your nose/it touches my foolish heart*

Amanda
xo

Yay!

2005-07-08T01:08:00.000-02:30

It's finally Friday! I'm so glad that this week is over. I'm looking forward to the weekend. B will be coming out tonight and will be coming up. So excited to see him :) Should be a good little weekend.

I bought a really cute top today. It's one of those tunic type tops and it's pink. I really like it. I'm thinking I'll wear it on Saturday with my cute little jean skirt. C and L's friends might be coming over for a BBQ and some drinks before they go to the reception of a wedding of a friend of theirs. I think B might be here for it as well. It'll be nice to have a date :) I also bought a pair of ladybug earrings. Ohh, they're pretty!

Terrence and his girlfriend dropped in tonight. She is gorgeous. I'm glad T found someone who makes him so happy. We'll probably be doing something tomorrow, so that will be nice.

I think that's about it for now. Take care everyone. If your moods are half as happy as mine, you are happy people indeed! :) Feel the love!

*i love you baby/and if it's quite alright/i need you baby/to warm a lonely night/i love you baby/trust in me when i say/....you're just to good to be true*

Amanda
xo

Well

2005-07-05T23:27:00.000-02:30

This week is dragging by. I feel a little out of sorts. I'm anxious for B to come back from St. John's...I need a hug like nobody knows. I'm sure I'll feel better soon enough. Eventually, everything works itself out.

I'm home all alone tonight. It's been a lonely sort of week, and I've been a little emotional :p I hate this time of the month (lol)....I'm such a sook!

I'm gonna go on again. Take care...keep safe.

*when i cry, i close my eyes/and every tear falls down inside/and i pray with all my might/that i will find my heart in someone's arms/when i cry*

Amanda
xo

Birthday Fun

2005-06-30T18:41:00.000-02:30

Last night was so much fun. I can honestly say that it was the best birhday I've had in a looong time. P came here to get ready and when we came out of my room to leave, Paul looked at her and said, "you look like a man in that tie". She took it as a compliment, god love her! P, my baby, I thought you looked so hot! ;)...and B, in your shirt and tie, delicious ;)

We got to Jungle Jim's and B's friend Amanda (who isn't me! lol) was working. We had a lovely time there and I had my big drink in the bowl glass! Then Amanda and the other JJ's workers sang happy birthday to me...gotta love my burning cheeks! And I swear there were about seven other people there who had their birthday! The employees were singing the whole time we were there it seemed!

B, P, and S are coming here tomorrow night for a little birthday BBQ. We're just going to hang out and eat and most likely drink! I wish it was tonight! It'll be nice to see S again. I haven't seen her in so long.

I went shopping today with mama. I bought so much! But I'm so impressed. I've been doing really good with my diet (though I splurged last night), and I bought a pair of pants that are 3 sizes smaller than I usually buy!!!!! Ohh...I feel so slim and hot these days! (lol) And it doesn't hurt that B always says things that make me feel hot! :) It's part of why I like him so much! *kiss kiss*

Just a couple of days until Terrence comes home. Can't wait to see him. Take care of yourselves everyone. Bye bye for now.

*oh my god, go a little slower/oh my god, what was that again/la da da, let me feel you baby/let me in, cause i understand/let me feel you baby, cause i understand*

Amanda
xo

Birthday Girl

2005-06-29T12:30:00.000-02:30

Here I am, another year older. I actually don't feel 25...that's probably because everyone I've been spending time with lately is much younger than me (lol) They keep me young! B likes to use the joke that I am "dipping my hands in the kiddie pool", but I know he likes it! ;)...And so do I! (lol) And it's so strange that he's younger but looks older and I'm older and look younger! It's all good I suppose!

Mom phoned this morning and woke me up by singing Happy Birthday when I answered the phone! What a cute woman she is. She told me that on the day I was born it was a beautiful day....I wish I could say the same for today! It seems warm but the wind is blowing crazily. Just enough to mess with my hair later!

I'm excited for 7:00-ish to get here. We're going to Jungle Jim's and I really want one of those drinks that come in the huge glass that looks like a bowl! And I'm getting the brownie sundae :) Ohh...bring on the sugar I say! I'll probably be high on sugar as I haven't had much of it in the last month. I'll be bouncing around for sure!

Anyhoo...I must go on. I'm going to laze around in my jammies and watch tv until it's time to get ready to go :) Take care of yourselves. Be happy, I know I am.

*we hope you live to 100. we hope you live to be 100. we hope you live to be 100. 100 years or more...*

Amanda
xo

Smile

2005-06-27T00:51:00.000-02:30

The past few days have gone by in a blur. There's so much going on, and I don't know what to talk about first. Yesterday was the Relay for Life walk. It was a great day. Mom was on our team which made it so much better. She's so much fun to have around. I walked all day, got blisters on my feet, and am burned like crazy! Now if only all this redness would turn brown I'd be a happy woman indeed!

B and I went to P's the other night and we went to the playground :) I feel like such a child! I love those swings so much. And if they could talk, eh P? (lol!) That was the best night ever!

Last night my (2) sweets came here after I got home from the cancer walk. Poor B came after he'd been to a party...*kissing your nose*. Don't you just love staying up all night long? There's something so cozy and comfortable about lying awake and just talking and cuddling...and perhaps kissing a little...*smile*

I'm really looking forward to my birthday. Jungle Jim's with my two dates :) (lol) There's nothing that makes a woman feel more wanted than having two dates for her birthday! Especially when one of them will be wearing a red tie..*wink wink*...and then the birthday weekend! I'm excited just thinking about it!

Terrence is coming home next Sunday (July 3) and is bringing his girlfriend. I'm looking forward to meeting her and spending some time with T. I miss him.

So goodnight to you all. Be safe...be happy!

*now here i am startin' over with a new love/he's a real man with a good heart/he's more than enough/laid back and smoothe/with a warm and gentle touch...*

Amanda
xo

We Belong

2005-06-23T20:39:00.000-02:30

I have been having such a good time lately. I feel younger than I am (lol), and I can't even remember the last time I was in this great a mood. Every morning I wake up and I am happy (despite my lack of sleep!). Compared to the last year (when I was so hurt and sad), these past few weeks have been amazing.

I'm so surprised at how feelings can change and how thoughts can change. A few months ago even, I was still so angry and messed up about things, and now I have been able to let so much go. I am even ok with the fact that something I thought I wanted to last forever has ended. Perhaps it was for the best anyway. I can see that now.

I love all the time I've been spending with P. I really miss her when she's living in Town. I went to her house last night and we walked and walked...and talked and talked...and played on the swings in the playground. :) Then we went out for coffee with S.

Yesterday was Mom and Dad's 26th wedding anniversary. I have a great respect for any couple that can stay together for that long. Any couple who has that much patience and love for each other is amazing indeed. I think it's lovely and I hope I will be so lucky.

Take care and be good. Hug someone you care about! :)

*how could this happen to me, i've made my mistakes, got nowhere to run, the night goes on as i'm fading away, i'm sick of this life, i just want to scream, how could this happen to me*

Amanda
xo

Last Week

2005-06-19T22:53:00.000-02:30

The weekend is over again. This is my last week of work and I'm excited and sad. I'm so happy to have a holiday but I don't know what I'm going to do with myself during the daytime. I'm certainly going to miss Rory's hugs and kisses...and singing our songs :)

I had a nice weekend. Went to B's on Friday and watched a movie. It was a lovely night. On Saturday, P and B were supposed to come up, but B got really sick...poor baby. So, P and I hung out and had a great night. Now she's sick too! It seems I'm the only one immune so far! I hope I don't wake up tomorrow morning feeling sick. Just my luck though....!

I'm doing the Relay for Life (cancer walk) again this year. It's on Saturday. Mom's on our team this year. She's going to do the survivor walk. I know I'm going to cry! I'm so glad she was strong enough to beat her cancer. I could never imagine the alternative....

I must be off. Take care of yourselves and be good. Be happy! :)

Oh! I've lost ten pounds!! :) I'm quite impressed. I'm still missing my sweets...but I think I'll live. Now, if only I could get Lynette to stop making those tempting cupcakes! So far I have resisted!

*i want to take in all the beauty here. let the whole world just disappear...life is so sweet, when you lie next to me*

Amanda
xo

Weekend is almost here!

2005-06-16T22:01:00.000-02:30

Tomorrow is the weekend, finally! This week has been so long. It felt like Friday would never get here. It seems the week is so long and boring for me and then the weekend comes and I have so much fun, but it's over much too soon. I'm looking forward to the end of the school year. Maybe I'll have more time to hang out with people :)

I'm going to miss Rory, though. He's the sweetest kid I have ever known. He hugs me more times a day than I can count...and he tells me he loves me and when I say I love you back, he says thank you! I could bite his cheeks. What a cutie.

I went shopping today. First time in 2 weeks!! That's unusual for me ("Miss goes shopping every day")!! I bought a bunch of stuff for my boys. Gotta give them some presents before I leave for the summer. Their mom says I buy too much! lol! Never! I'd buy them more if I knew she wouldn't mind!

The weather is so gross I can hardly stand it. I walk around wrapped in my blanket all the time! And I'm still cold! I'm hoping it warms up by my birthday :)

Talk to you all later. Be safe!

*your lips upon my lips can you envision it...your fingertips on my fingertips...your skin upon my skin would be the sweetest sin*

Amanda
xo

Don't Know Why

2005-06-14T22:48:00.000-02:30

I have absolutely no idea why I'm writing tonight. I have nothing of any importance to say...I'm just feeling bored, I guess. Ugh...there are so many reality shows on the go these days. There's one on now about singers from the past trying to get their career going again. Vanilla Ice is singing now...though I seem to remember his "I don't ever want to be a sell-out again" speech. What the f*** ever man. He said he'd never sing "Ice ice, Baby" again and yet there he is shaking his ass singing...*cookin MC's like a pound of bacon*...What the hell kind of line is that??

I'm sleepy tonight...as I have been for the past few nights. I have a good reason though. I can't seem to get to bed very early! It's all good though. I'm not complaining :)

I love this perpetual feeling of calm. I haven't felt so comfortable and so happy and so good in so long. It only takes one thing to make you feel so low that you don't want to get out of bed...and then it only takes one thing to lift you back up :) And it's nice to be lifted...very, very nice indeed.

I'm off again. Be good everyone.

*but my god it's so beautiful when the boy smiles...wanna hold him but maybe i'll just sing about it*

Amanda
xo

Good Times

2005-06-12T22:06:00.000-02:30

P and B came over again last night. I have the best time with those two. They're such a laugh...espicially B :) We had a few beers and watched "The L Word". That show never gets tired. I could watch it everyday. Anyway, we had a great night.

Chris wrote his police exam last night as well. He said it went very well and I'm so happy for him. He has to wait 6 to 8 weeks for the results though. We'll die of curiousity before then!! I'm sure he did super good though...my little Chris! lol! Mom gave him a kiss good luck and had a little cry for herself--she's such a cutie.

I'm feeling so good these days. Don't you just love it when you're constantly in a good mood?...and everything is going so lovely. Makes me want to dance around a little. Maybe I will later! :) We'll see...

I should mosey on again I suppose. Just a little update tonight. Take care of yourselves...be good!

*if i could only have you near to breathe a sigh or two, i would be happy just to hold the hands i love, on this winter's night with you*

Amanda
xo

Book Tag

2005-06-09T21:13:00.000-02:30

Sheldon book tagged me and I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do about it, so I'll just copy what he wrote in his latest blog entry, I guess...

What is the last book you bought?
***The Way the Crow Flies--by Ann Marie MacDonald
I got it at Cole's the last time I was in St. John's

Name five books you really like.
***1. Fall on your Knees--by Ann Marie MacDonald
It's a beautiful story about the complexities of family, and how no matter what, your family is all you have and you love them through the good and the bad.

***2. Odd Thomas--by Dean Koontz
The main character's name really is Odd! He can see spirits and can see things that are going to happen before they actually do. The end made me cry. I just loved it.

***3. White Oleander--by Janet Fitch
Once again, it's about family. I enjoy stories about the troubles of families and how people persevere through troubling times and become better people from their experiences.

***4. If I knew, Don't You Think I'd tell You/I'll Tell You One Damn Thing, and That's All I know--by Jann Arden
I love anything and everything that woman does. She's funny and beautiful and amazing.

***5. The Notebook--by Nicholas Sparks
Beautiful love story. A little unrealistic but nice to think that love could really be that way.

How many books do you own?
***About 150...give or take! I'm addicted to books. I love to buy them and I read so fast that I have to keep getting more and more!

Ok, that's it for me. If I'm supposed to do something else with this book tag thing, Sheldon, let me know!!

Amanda
xo

Breathe, just breathe

2005-06-09T18:03:00.000-02:30

Has anyone heard the song "Breathe(2am)" by Anna Nalick? It's the greatest song. I adore it. I'm enjoying the solitude of the house tonight. Listening to my songs and singing as loud as I want. These times are so few that I feel like I have to take advantage of them. There's always at least one other person in the house with me and when they're all gone I feel like a kid in a candy store. I'm not sure what I should do first! Today I decided to update and sing!

I feel so alive these days. Summer is coming, the weather is warming (sometimes!), and I feel free. Free to do as I please. Free to fall in love again. Free to be whoever I want to be and not be scared of what others will think. To be unafraid of them calling me a hypocrite, or ashamed of myself because I'm not doing or saying what others expect. I haven't been myself in a long time. Moving past the issues of the last year have been difficult but I've emerged triumphant and strong and a better person.

I feel lighter. My heart feels happier, and my memories have faded from the front of my mind. They're stored in the back now, fuzzy and pleasant. I'm feeling great!

Take care of yourselves. Be happy...be content.

*2 am and she calls me cause i'm still awake, can you help me unravel my latest mistake. i don't love him and winter just wasn't my season*

Amanda
xo

Camping+Flies=Itching!!

2005-06-05T22:01:00.000-02:30

I spent the entire weekend with P and B. What a laugh! Friday night we went camping with a few others and it was the best time. The 'flies were wicked' (as Rory would say). Swarms of them. No matter where you went you couldn't escape them! I have so many fly bites...I'm itching all over! We drank and played fuck ups in the tent. Crazy bunch. The weather was decent enough...though you don't mind the cold and sleeping on the ground when you've got someone to cuddle up with ;) Good times, good times.

Last night we went for coffee and then came back here to watch movies. We stayed up until after three and the wierdest, kinkiest shows come on Showcase that late at night. Some I don't ever want to think of again...haha! Though I would like to know where they have those "Strut your Strap On" parties. That looked interesting...

I went for a walk again tonight with mom. I given up all junk food and sweets, and I've been eating waayyy healthier and exercising. I feel really good, but I'm craving a piece of the strawberry shortcake my dad made like nobodies business!! LOL! I can brave it out though. I'm tough!

I should go tidy my room. What a state it's in! I'll be talking to you all later. Take care...be good!! :)

*life doesn't wait for us to get it right, day after night, it just goes on when it goes wrong, it goes and then it's gone. so i'm gonna do my best to make the most of it, avoid regret, yeah, take a breath and realize time is irreversible. this ain't no dress rehearsal*

Amanda
xo

Oh, Glorious Sunshine

2005-05-25T18:05:00.000-02:30

What a gorgeous day! I thought it was going to be foggy and cold forever. I'm looking forward to more sunshine. For the past two weeks I've been exhausted. The fogginess really affects how I feel during the day...dragged out and sleepy! It was so nice today that Rory and I went out on the patio for snack time. He had a little picnic :)

Man oh man...Maury is getting as bad as Jerry Springer. Every day it's the same show. Paternity tests and cheaters! It's a good laugh though!

I wonder who'll win American Idol tonight? I kind of think Bo is going to. He seems to be very popular. Canadian Idol starts on Monday :) Maybe someone else from NL will make it past Toronto again this year. Give us someone to watch for!

I don't have much to say today it seems. I had lots to say earlier and now I can't remember most of it!! My mind is gone! Old age I suppose. I was supposed to go camping this past Friday night, but it was super cold out so I didn't go. Stayed home in my nice warm bed.

I'm gonna mosey on again...I have nothing left to say for now! Take care everybody. We'll be talking again soon :)

*don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me. don't you wish she was a freak like me*

Amanda
xo

Still Alive!

2005-05-10T17:07:00.000-02:30

So much has been going on these days. I never get a chance to update this thing! I'll just tell you all about the most interesting things, I suppose...

On Sunday, May first, Mom, Chris, Paul and myself got ready and headed to god's country (not!). Paul's grandmother got it into her head that since he hadn't been baptized as a baby, it was very important for it to be done now. If you ask me, she was just trying to scam an extra visit. Anyway, the service was held in a church in a town called Blackhead...I kid you not. It makes me think of pimples! It went as well as could be expected considering it involved Paul and his nan. For everything that happened she had her mouth going..."Now Paul, listen to the minister." "Now Paul, listen to poppy read." "Now Paul, go up and get you candle." On and on. I was happy when it was time to go home.

On Friday night Andrew graduated!! We went to mom's for pictures and to give gifts. Then I babysat Rory and Nolan while the Shortall's went to the graduation. Nolan was obsessed with playing with my rings (they had magical powers), and all Rory wanted to do was smell my banana split lip gloss!! Such cuties.

This past Saturday Pam and I hung out at her house. We had chinese (of course) and we watched the first three episodes of the second season of "The L Word". I can not wait for that to come out on DVD. I want it. It was nice to be with Pam. I hadn't seen her since she got home from Town for the summer. We're going to make plans for this weekend too I think.

On Sunday we went to mom's house for turkey. So good :-) We gave mom her gifts (a ring, a necklace with charms, a cd, a dvd, a family picture frame, and a cute mom ornament made out of bread dough). Chris and Lynette went to St. John's to see the monster trucks. They said it was awesome. They got some really good pictures.

On Friday night, May 13, the Recreation committee is hosting a gospel concert. Since I'm involved in the committee, I think I might go...feel the glory! :-D

Oh! I cut my hair. It's just past my shoulders now...and I got blonde highlights. I'm all sexy for the summer! I really love David Usher's new song 'Love Will Save the Day'. *Whew* I think that's about all I have for now. I'll talk to you all later. Take care.

*i'm giving you my heart and soul and in return, i want you to burn, burn for me baby. like a candle in the night. burn, burn for me, burn for me*

Amanda
xo

All is not Lost

2005-04-07T20:16:00.000-02:30

The world may yet be saved. There actually are still good people in the world, and it's comforting to know that they are there. A couple of nights ago, Lynette told me the nicest story...

Lynette was working in Costumer Service a few nights ago when a customer came up to her and said, "I was shopping here before Christmas and I bought a childs suit (pants and a top). They were two seperate pieces but the cashier must have mistook them for a set and only charged me for the pants. I would have been back sooner but I live in St. John's and don't come here often." She then said, "I had to bring them back so I could pay you for the top. I want to go to heaven when I die and I think something like this might keep me out." So, Lynette called the childrens dept. manager to Customer Service and the lady told her the same thing. The dept. manager told her she couldn't believe how honest she was to come back and told her not to worry about paying for the top!

It made me smile. I thought it was the cutest story. Some people are still decent!

Take care of yourselves. Ta ta for now.

*every long lost dream led me to where you are, other's who broke my heart they were like northern stars. pointing me on my way, into your loving arms. this much i know is true, god blessed the broken road that led me straight to you*

Amanda
xo

Date Nite

2005-04-02T14:28:00.000-03:30

What a beautiful day! The sun is shining and the wind has died down considerably (thank the lord) and according to my dad, it's 10 degrees outside :) Right now I'm home alone and I'm taking advantage of the empty house by blasting Melissa's "Breakdown" cd and singing my best :) I adore that cd. I've gotten very much into Michael Buble as well. I love his jazzy style. His cd is awesome.

Pam and I are going out on our date(!) tonight. She just called actually to make it for an earlier time. I guess she can't resist me...wants to spend as much time with me as she can!! haha! Should be a lovely evening. We're going to watch some L Word. What a delicious show.

My Easter holiday is almost over. Back to work on Monday morning. I can't believe how close June is getting. It'll soon be summer holiday for christ sake. The time is running by and it's a struggle sometimes to keep up. I'm looking forward to the summer. If all goes well and as planned I'll be going to Calgary to visit Janice. Maybe I'll love it so much there that I won't come back! It'll be nice to see her again.

That's it for now I suppose. I think I'll go read for a bit. Take care of yourselves. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*another airplane, another sunny day here in Paris or Rome, but i'm coming back home...oh i miss you you know*

Amanda
xo

Quando quando quando

2005-03-27T17:54:00.000-03:30

It's so lovely outside today. Sunny and crisp and spring-ish. Most of the snow has melted away and I can actually see grass again! I'm loving this weather. The other day, every time I went outside I felt like a kid again. It was one of those days that made me think of being younger and playing outside until after supper because it was still light out. Mom would call us to come in and get a bath and we'd say "Just a few more minutes Mom. It's not dark yet!"

I'm off now for Easter and since Friday I feel so productive. I've caught up on my laundry (I did 3 loads), I cleaned and tidied my bedroom, and I haven't been sleeping in! I actually get up by 10! That's fairly early for me!! :)

I brought Rory and Nolan some Easter treats the other day. I love giving treats to Rory. He's so sweet about it. He gets a cute surprised look on his face and says, "Is that for me?"...he does it everytime. No matter what you give him. I love him to pieces.

I think that's it from me for now. Take care of yourselves. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*tell me when will you be mine. tell me quando quando quando*

Amanda
xo

Life is Fleeting

2005-03-11T20:02:00.000-03:30

I wonder what is wrong with the world? Or, more to the point, what is wrong with the people in it? The news these days is so incredibly sad. It seems to me that there is no safe place on earth to be. We go to bed with thoughts of seeing the morning sky and the faces of the people we love, and we are damn lucky when we wake up to face another day.

Compared to all the problems in the world we have nothing to complain about. We have our health, and more importantly we have our lives. The people in law enforcement deserve all the admiration and respect we can muster. What they do every day is amazing. Knowing that each day they go to work they are possibly facing absolute danger. Their bravery is to be emulated.

My heart breaks for those four RCMP officers and now the judge in Atlanta who was murdered today. I can't imagine how their families must feel. I do know that Chris has gathered almost everything he needs to apply to the RCMP and is getting ready to submit his application. I worry over him and at the same time I am so proud of him.

So, tonight I will again lay down my head, and dream sweet dreams. Safe in the knowledge that when I wake tomorrow I won't have to fight someone for my life. We should all be so lucky.

Take care everyone. Keep safe. Ta ta for now.

*the world is falling apart and i know in my heart i don't know what to do about it*

Amanda
xo

Beautiful Missa

2005-02-14T17:00:00.000-03:30

Hey hey!

How's everyone doing these days? I am much better now that the flu has past. I went to bed on Tuesday night and was awake for most of the night shivering and feverish! Then for about four days I was aching like crazy! I still have a headache today, but I feel much better.

Mom and I went shopping on Saturday. I hadn't been to Carbonear since Christmas!!!! I couldn't believe it had been that long. It was a really nice day. We were able to leave Paul home and that makes such a difference. I bought little valentine presents for my boys and an Oscar the Grouch nightshirt for me! And, OMG....I went into the electronics dept. at Walmart and what did my little eyes happen upon?? A DVD for my Missa's Lucky album. That went into my cart faster than you can blink! It's called "Melissa Etheridge Lucky Live". I could do a dance! (I actually did a little dance) I was so excited. I had no idea there was a DVD out.

Speaking of Melissa, I watched her on the Grammy's last night. She sang in a tribute for Janis Joplin. My girl is completely bald. I knew she had treatment for her cancer but for some reason it never even entered my head that she would have lost her hair. So when she walked out on stage and I saw her....my heart broke. I cried all through her performance. She was so beautiful and she looks so healthy. I'm so glad she's healthy....

Mom found an old cassette tape I made back in high school. It's all Celine Dion songs. I remember borrowing D's Celine CD's to record them. What a blast from the past. My eyes teared up as I was singing along! Mom and I singing our best! You should have heard us!

Ok, I'll go on again now that I've talked your eyes off! Take care everyone. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*i'm not the one you needed, i love you...goodbye*

Amanda
xo

Nothing New

2005-02-05T13:57:00.000-03:30

Hey all

I'm not really sure what to write today. I haven't written in a while so I thought it a good idea to say something lest you all think I was neglecting to let you in on this fabulous, exciting life I lead! haha!

Nothing new to report. Everything is pretty much the same. Work is good, the family is doing well, and I am feeling top notch. Thought I was getting the stomach flu earlier this week (thought I was catching it from Nolan) but it turns out it must just have been an upset tum. Nothing came of it except a headache and a sickly feeling, thank Jebus!

On Tuesday Rory will be starting a program at All Hallows school called Start Smart. It's designed for kids ages 3-4, and is intended for them to learn basic things like numbers and colors and the like, as well as socialization before they actually start school. I think it is a wonderful idea and I know Rory Boo is going to love it. I can't wait to watch him playing with all the other little cuties. It'll be fun and will get us out of the house for bit.

So, that's it for now. Will talk again soon. Take care. Ta ta for now.

*if you loved me i would not need my drunken friends, and if you loved me my lonliness for sure would end, if you loved me*

Amanda
xo

Invisible

2005-02-05T13:52:00.000-03:30

Look at me with unseeing eyes

Transparent skin

Blurry features

Aching to be noticed

Yearning to be held

Walk away without a care

I am nothing

You are the light

Amanda
xo

Oh, the Dream

2005-01-26T20:31:00.000-03:30

The other night I had the worst dream. It always happens when I sleep on my back. I don't even remember what the dream was about but I know it was bad. Then, to top it off, I had the "hag"...TWICE!!!! I was still on my back and it felt like my eyes were open and I couldn't raise my arms. It felt like they were glued to the bed, and as I was looking up I could see my own face looking down at me. Then I heard myself cry out and I could move again. But I must have drifted off again on my back because next thing I know I can't move and there's my face looking down on me. I cried out again and woke up and turned to my side and slept on without incident for the rest of the night. Disturbing....very disturbing....

I am loving all the snow days I'm getting. All the sleep in's are good for me! I went for a walk in the snow tonight. It was very lovely. The air was so crisp and I was bundled up so much that I was actually warm!! Now my cheeks are red and my nose is runny! Very nice indeed.

Take care everyone. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*the next thing i knew she was all up on me screaming, YEAH!*

Amanda
xo

Breeze

2005-01-19T19:45:00.000-03:30

Scatter my thoughts

Rein them back in

Guide me gently through the day

Like a hand softly caressing my skin

I am lost

I am lost

Find me

Belong?

2005-01-16T11:40:00.000-03:30

Adrift
Floating mindlessly out to sea
Alone
Wondering what happens next
No answers
Feeling like I don't belong
I am left alone to ponder
So, I wait

Amanda
xo

Weekend at Last!

2005-01-14T22:53:00.000-03:30

Heya Everyone

How's it going? I am well. Things are lovely. I'm glad the weekend is finally here. I don't think I could take one more day of getting up at 6:45. I am exhausted this week. I'm really looking forward to my sleep in tomorrow morning.

I got a new cell phone the other day!! :-) I am in love. It's a flip camera phone, and it's the cutest little phone ever! I signed up to pay an extra five bux a month and I have unlimited internet from my phone! I feel so very high tech!! It does not take much to excite me it seems!

I bought a gorgeous turtle neck at Reitman's tonight. It's so soft. Marked down to $24.99! And Chris and Lynette gave me a couple of gift certificates for Christmas, so I used one to buy the sweater. I am impressed with my week's purchases! My god, I love to shop! haha!

Chris and Lynette are going to St. John's on Sunday. I'm hoping they don't spend the night at Jodie's. I wanna tag along and go see "White Noise". I'm dying to have the crap scared out of me! That movie looks awesome.

I must take off again I suppose. See what I can find to do. Dad's gone to Grand Falls tonight on an ambulane call. I think I'll send him some safety thoughts for a safe drive back. *be safe Cal* :) Take care of yourselves Guys. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*i've got, a good father, and his strength is what makes me cry*

Amanda
xo

Snow Day

2005-01-07T13:08:00.000-03:30

As you all may know, I am not the biggest fan of winter...especially snow. But yesterday I started hearing about a heavy snowfall warning for St. John's and area, and I started praying for a snow day! And here I am!! At home at 1:13 on a Friday afternoon! I love unexpected long weekends. Bless the snow!! haha!

There's some sort of telethon thingy on the radio today for the Red Cross. They're raising money for the tsunami fund. I'm thinking about calling and giving them some money. I've stopped watching the news so much. They kept showing all these little bodies littered all over the beaches there. My heart can only take so much. One night I was watching the news and they showed a man on the beach holding the dead body of his child and he was crying so loudly...sobbing. It broke my heart. Then I couldn't stop crying. I really think I'll call and try to help them in whatever little way I can.

I just read Sheldon's post about his memory land comfort! I've been having some of that lately too. Rory and I have been playing outside since there's a bit of snow and he's so cute to watch. Running around in his clunky boots and lying on the ground making snow angels! And his already red cheeks are so rosy. I could bite him!

Anyhoo, bundle up, keep warm. Take care of yourselves. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*and if i am a sailor then you are the warm gulf wind*

Amanda
xo

Happy 2005

2005-01-02T20:25:00.000-03:30

2005 is here! Time is moving, things are changing, and I find it hard to wrap my mind around the fact that another year is beginning. I think I'm actually glad to see 2004 go. It was somewhat of a hard year for me. I'm ready for a new beginning.

Appropriately enough, we rang in the new year with a big old party! My house was full! People were drinking, we were all dancing. Blair was home from Winnipeg for Christmas and he came down for the party. Poor thing didn't go to bed at all that night! He left here at 2am and was on a plane home at 5 am!!!

I was feeling pretty good. Drank 14 or 15 beer...the most I've ever drank in my life!! I had so much fun. We laughed so much. Woke up the next morning with nothing more than a headache :) Took a couple of pills and went to moms for turkey supper! It was an awesome holiday!

So, my new years resolution for this year is to just be happy and look out for myself. And I'll throw in a "I'm going to go on a diet" resolution!! Who sticks to that one, honestly?! ;-)

I hope everyone has year filled with love and happiness and friends and good times. Take care of yourselves, Honies. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*i don't wanna be anything other than what i've been tryin to be lately*

Amanda
xo

Busy, busy, busy!

2004-12-30T14:53:00.000-03:30

Hey all

Just letting you know that I'm still alive!! I've been having such a wonderful holiday :) We had a great Christmas. Santa was super good to all of us over here. Terrence came to visit, which was so nice. I didn't realize how much I miss talking to him. I'm looking forward to meeting his girlfriend next Christmas.

We had a party here the other night and are having another one tomorrow night for New Year's Eve! Lynette and I will be busy tonight making up the snacks for tomorrow. I can't wait for everyone to get here. It's gonna be fun!

I hope you all had a great holiday and a Merry Christmas. Happy New Year to you all. Take care of yourselves. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*and i can't ask for things to be still again, no i can't ask if i can walk through the world in your eyes*...ahh, my Missa :-)

Amanda
xo

It's Christmas!!!

2004-12-20T16:24:00.000-03:30

Heya Guys

I'm sitting here enjoying all the wind and rain! I almost blew away after work! Had an interesting day. Nolan's home with pink eye. I washed my hands about a thousand times throughout the day. I DO NOT want that dirt for Christmas. Knowing me and my knack for catching things, though, I'll be here on Christmas morning with pink gooey eyes! Yuck!

Well, this past weekend was crazy. On Friday night after Lynette got off work, we went to Town for some shopping. Didn't get home until after 2 in the morning. Had a great time though. I got a white fleece hoodie at Old Navy for less than 6 bux. I was super impressed. :)

Got up on Saturday morning to go to the Santa parade here in Clarke's Beach...my, my, my...has anyone ever been to a hick Santa parade?! There was a total of 3 floats, about 10 fire trucks, and then Santa rode through. It took all of five minutes for the whole thing to drive through the main road of Clarke's Beach! Truthfully, I was a little embarassed for the Town. I mean, if that's all they could come up with, they should have just said forget about it.

Left the parade and went to get my hair trimmed. I still really love this haircut. The bangs are my favorite part. Then mom and I went to Carbonear. Once we got back in Bay Robert's we were going to stop in to the liquor store. We were getting out of the car and mom couldn't find her purse!!! We searched the entire car and it wasn't there. So I phoned Walmart and the lady I spoke to told me that someone had turned in a purse and when she checked the I.D., it was mom's! We took off back to Carbonear, mom got her purse, and there wasn't a thing missing! She was so relieved. Poor thing was nearly in tears. Besides her debit and credit cards, there was a substantial amount of cash (her car payment) in her purse. Thank god there are still people who won't rob you blind.

On Sunday I went with mom and Jordan to the Pentecostal church to watch their Christmas Catata (I think that's how it's spelled!) Andrew was in it. It was lovely. Andrew played Friar John Mohr, the monk who wrote "Silent Night". When Friar Mohr learned that the church organ was broken and wouldn't be fixed in time for Christmas, he wrote a song that was meant to played on the guitar. I am in no way becoming 'churchy' (LOL) but I was moved to tears a couple of times watching the whole thing. I could seriously feel how much these people believed in their words and the spirit of it all. It's nice to have something to believe in.

When I got home from church I went with Chris and Lynette driving around to get ice cream and ooh and ahh over people's Christmas lights. We went to Port de Grave to see the boats. So beautiful. 'My' boat was lovely, of course! And that's it! That's everything I've been up to lately. I hope everyone has a great Christmas, full of love and happiness and hugs. I'll talk to you all soon. Ta ta for now.

Merry Christmas!

*silent night, holy night. all is calm, all is bright...sleep in heavenly peace, sleep in heavenly peace*

Amanda
xo

Ho! Ho! Ho!

2004-12-14T20:00:00.000-03:30

Hi everyone

It's been a while. I have no reason for not writing. I've just been lazy :) I've had a lovely couple of weeks since I last posted. On Saturday (Dec.4) I went to the Santa parade in Bay Robert's. That was so nice. I hadn't been to a parade in years, since I was a kid, actually, and I had the best time. Seeing the floats come up the road I felt excitement like I haven't felt in a long time. My eyes filled with tears and I was so happy. Standing there with mom all I could think about was when I was little and she would hold my hand and I would hold Chris's and we would walk up the track to the train station to wait for Santa so we could get our treat bag after the parade. Oh to be young again...

On Sunday (Dec.5) Chris, Lynette and I put up our tree and decorated the house. It looks a lot like Christmas around here! I haven't gotten under the tree to look up at the lights yet, but I will before Christmas is over. There is nothing more relaxing than lying under a lit Christmas tree :)

I've been shopping, and I went to see Rory this past Saturday to give him his birthday gift (his bday was on the 12th). Other than that I haven't really been doing anything. Just relaxing and getting ready for Christmas :) We have all sorts of plans for the 25th and we are having a party here on New Years Eve. I can't wait for the holidays to get here.

Now that I've caught you all up on what's going on I'll mosey on. Take care of yourselves. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*oh the weather outside is frightful, but the fire is so delightful. and since we've no place to go, let it snow, let it snow, let it snow*

Amanda
xo

Government Sluts

2004-12-01T20:02:00.000-03:30

So, apparently when the Student Loan people sends you your Interest Relief approval letter, that's it! No warning letter when the Interest Relief is almost up. They expect for us poor fools to remember SIX MONTHS down the road that, "Oh! It's time to reapply for Interest Relief". Well, this poor fool's memory don't work like that! I completely forgot that my I. R. was up at the end of October and when I checked my bank account today they had taken my payment! Bastards!!

So, as soon as I got home I phoned them...I was so mad! I haven't felt anger like that since I lived on Blackmarsh Rd. and was in a constant state of anger towards those people (haha!)...Janice knows what I'm talking about. I was talking to a very nice, very helpful woman and now I have a new application coming. Thank Jesus! She said I could try to get a refund of the payment that they took but she recommended that I just let that payment go. She said it will take 10 days for the payment to go through and then probably another 2 weeks before they reviewed it to see about issuing a refund cheque.

God damn government sluts. If you owed them money they'd be knocking on your door for it. But when they might owe you, they're all about making you wait for it! So, I've decided to let the payment go through. I don't want the drama of fighting for it. That's my day in a nutshell...I have a headache like a son of a bitch, and I'm tired. I'm looking forward to the weekend like nobody knows.

Take care of yourselves Lovies. Talk soon. Ta ta for now.

*you gotta be bad, you gotta be bold, you gotta be wiser. you gotta be hard, you gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger*

Amanda
xo

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