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Oh Me
It's been far too long since I last posted. I've been caught up with Facebook. That site truly is addictive. Not bad for someone who said she'd never join it, right. But I'm on there everyday, seeing what's up and looking at everyone's profiles and pictures. It's gotten me back in touch with old friends and people I haven't spoken to in years so I suppose it's all good.
School is done and Rory and Nolan are off doing what little kids do. Camping and staying up later than usual and enjoying all the freedom summer allows to the innocent. I adore those kids. The last day was a little sad for me. They gave me kisses and hugs and said I love you on their way out the door. Off to their good times.
Things have been in a bit of a transition here these past several weeks. I'm no longer dating C. B and I have decided to work things out. I'm happier these days than I've been in so long. I guess people and relationships have to go through rough patches sometimes. We've talked and figured things out and are happily giving it another try. *smiles*
I've turned 27. I'm not quite sure what to say about it. I feel no different than I did when I was 24 or 25 or 26. I find it funny that some people see turning a year older as such a big deal. I think age is one of those things that can bring you down if you let it. I feel wonderful. And turning 27 has been great. I think good things are going to happen this year.
Chris and Lynette have moved the wedding from October to August! So, it's 2 months earlier than we expected. I'm quite excited about it. Lynette asked me to be a bridesmaid and I have to give a speech, probably welcoming Lynette to the family. I know I'm going to cry! I'm already getting nervous about it! We've been busy here, getting ready for it all. We already had the shower and I soon have to get fitted for my dress. I very much enjoy doing the things leading up to the wedding. I can only imagine what it'll be like the week of!!
*Oh, I hear the rains/I see the fire/I feel the flame/It doesn't change/ All the faces I want to blame/For the spaces in between the shame/ I'm feeling.../ The Kingdom's calling/ The Kingdom's calling you*
Mandy
xo
Sweet Eeyeore Was Hugged and Kissed on 8:35 p.m..
Beautiful as You
I feel backward
and clumsy
Yet you never comment
In your eyes
I am beautiful
I am perfect
I am you
You breathe me in
and memorize my every curve
Trace my cheek with your finger
my lips with your tongue
my heart with your love
Went to WWE RAW on Saturday night past (May 12). Robert and Chris and Jordan went as well. I had the most fun. I'll never find the words to describe it. It was a surreal experience. We managed to take some amazing pictures. Our seats were so close to the ring! John Cena was literally, about 25 feet from me! I can admit that I lost all inhibitions. I was jumping, and clapping my hands and screaming with the rest of them :) best.time.ever.
Summer feels like it's coming so quickly. My time with Rory is slipping through my fingers. I'm truly going to miss him when they no longer need me. June is all I have left. What will I do after that....
I've become addicted to Facebook *hangs head in shame* I swore I wouldn't join, and now, here I am, everyday checking it and doing surveys. Oh my! But I've gotten back in touch with a friend I knew when we were playing house and school when we were 10 years old! I hadn't spoken to her in 10 years or more and now she's on my friend list. I guess I can't complain about that, right?
I'm off to Town for the long weekend. C's birthday is on May 29 so we're going to have some birthday celebrations a week or so early. Fun times.
*Is love by chance or seduction/all that I have are vague assumptions/of what love must be like/what love must feel like/Tell me what does it look like/is it as beautiful as you*
Mandy
xo
Sweet Eeyeore Was Hugged and Kissed on 12:43 a.m..
Colors Seem to Fade
The stars are watching
I hide my face
My bright smile
My twinkling eyes
Lies
Infuriating sadness
Inconvenient truth
Swallowed down
Buried deep
But I'll dance
Under the moon
and the watchful stars
Who
As always
See the truth
It's been a while since I last posted. I can't seem to get my thoughts in order lately. Something else always comes up or I get lazy. Same old same old. I've been spending a lot of my weekends in Town these days. I've been dating someone...Chris...and we've been hanging out and getting to know each other. He's a great person and we've been having fun.
And I've been shopping lots. I bought a new digital camera that I'm super impressed with. We have tickets to see WWE Raw (wrestling!) next weekend and I plan to get some pictures of my hunky men :P I'm quite excited to go! I'm expecting to have an amazing time.
I think that's it from me again. I had a bunch to say but it all seems to have left me. Take care of yourselves.
*I never meant to make you cry/and though I know I shouldn't call/It just reminds us of the cost/For everything we've lost/Bad timing that's all/And maybe soon there'll come a day/When no more tears will fall/We each forgive a little bit/And we both look back on it/It's just bad timing that's all*
Mandy
xo
Sweet Eeyeore Was Hugged and Kissed on 8:43 p.m..
*I'm off like an airplane*
I told you
and the words didn't come as easily
as I thought they would.
All I wanted was
to spare you the hurt
you didn't spare me.
And you took them in,
Quiet and dignified
and broke me
as only you ever could.
C is a great guy, you tell me.
And we'll always be friends.
And nobody knows how much
I want those words to be truth.
Just when I think I have no more
tears for you
they start to fall.
But today I am stronger.
And I know you are too.
And I think that's all I want
to say about that.
*when i cry, i close my eyes/and every tear falls down inside/and i pray with all my might/that i will find my heart in someone's arms/when i cry*
Mandy
xo
Sweet Eeyeore Was Hugged and Kissed on 9:08 p.m..
I met the Animal
I'm so lazy tonight, and on top of that I'm feeling quite happy. C came out on Friday and we went to Tim Horton's and then ended up at Rupert's house, which was interesting, to say the least. Then on Saturday I went to C's house for supper and the Gushue's were there as well. That went much smoother. I liked his mom and his brothers, especially K, haha, what a cutie! After the supper, Rupert, C and I went to Tim's and after we dropped Rupert at home we went back to Tim's (our favorite place to be apparently!). Then we came back here. It was quite a lovely evening. Now the weekend is done and I'm here by myself in my jammies being lazy!
I see in you a sweetness.
Something so genuine
it breaks my heart.
And when you speak
I hang on your every word
and know in my heart that I can believe them.
When I close my eyes I can see your face
and my heart jumps a little
at the thought that you may be
thinking of me too.
Words we whisper
so small
Fill me up and sustain me.
The darkness envelopes us
and we lie close
and sleep.
*I pray that it's raining on sunday/stormin like crazy/we'll hide under the covers all afternoon/baby whatever comes monday/can take care of itself/cuz we've got better things that we can do/when it's raining on sunday*
Mandy
xo
Sweet Eeyeore Was Hugged and Kissed on 9:51 p.m..
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
I can't stop smiling
I can't stop thinking of you
You with your shy smile
and nervous laugh
and your beautiful eyes.
Brown so intense I feel I could step into them
and nestle safely in their warmth
and be content forever.
Your gentleness amazes me
and I close my eyes
and feel your breath in my hair
and your heart beating against my cheek.
Steady rhythm, in time with my own.
The world has faded away.
No one exists in this cocoon but me
and you
and I smile
and snuggle closer
ever closer
and breathe you in.
*you are the sweetest thing i've found since whenever/you're the only way my time is measured/you might be the silent type/but you're advertising louder now/it's crazy how you're killing me/...woo, cause i like to look at you yeah/and i love that smell on you...*
Mandy
xo
Sweet Eeyeore Was Hugged and Kissed on 4:33 p.m..
The Weakness in Me
I'm sitting here, thinking, wishing, wondering.
People can be hard to read.
Their faces reveal nothing.
But then their words, ever so subtle,
tell you just what you want to know.
And you feel a warm rush
through your belly
and it creeps into your cheeks.
And you smile your widest
and laugh, laugh harder than you have in weeks.
Then the laughter fades
and you look at each other
strangers almost, but not quite
and you fall silent for just a moment
but it's ok
because you know that at any minute
laughter will hit you again.
Harder than before.
And it's all so new, so thrilling.
And surprising, if you're honest with yourself.
Love still lingering in your heart.
Wanting to push through,
But you can't let it,
You can't let it bring you down.
You can just remember
and hold it close
and kiss it goodnight.
And sit here
With hair that smells like coffee.
And cheeks still warm from that smile.
And you kiss it goodnight.
*if I choose now/I'll lose out/one of you has to fall/and I need you....and you/...are you so strong/or is all the weakness in me*
Mandy
xo
Sweet Eeyeore Was Hugged and Kissed on 12:12 a.m..
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